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I feel so blah - nothing is right - no one (especially DH) can do anything right - in fact everyone is doing the opposite

I know I should be thankful for what I have, but I'm not - I'm miserable.

I want to change, but don't have the motivation

I hate my weight - I opened my closet today and I can honestly say that I can only wear 10 % of whats in there

I hate my stupid short haircut - that everyone else likes

I'm bored at work, and not challenged, but can take time off for dr appointments when I need to, so I'm staying put

I just had a 5 day vacation, and truly did not enjoy myself

I htink thats it for now - any suggestions?

Message edited 10/3/2006 11:35:08 AM.

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So sorry about how you are feeling . I dont have any advice because I am dealing with the same emotions. Feel better. IF is so emotionally draining!

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Come out tonight with us.....we will try to cheer you up.

I know how you feel, I have been there many times. I got this p/t job just so I would not be home feeling blah. Is there anything that you really enjoy, that you could do??

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Message edited 10/3/2006 11:53:30 AM.

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I can't - I already have dinner plans for tonight

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Okay...you are my twin today, I can ditto everything you said.....I wish I knew what would make us feel better, but i have no idea....many to you....

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I guess its normal then?

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No, I don't think it's normal to be depressed, but I almost don't think it can be avoided when you are trying to do something in life, and it is not easily achieved.

I just try to take one day at a time......some good, some bad.....just know that I have empathy, and you are not alone....

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I feel the same way...

I wish I had advice for you

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Been there!

Nothing is gonna cheer you up when your feeling those moods but you WILL snap out of it. Hang in there.

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I know exactly how you feel! I just gave my DH an earfull! I am sick and tired of being the ONLY ONE in the relationship making all the sacrifices trying to have a baby.

Changed jobs to get the Insurance needed for the IVF (I hate my job now).

Stopped Smoking

AND now on NutriSystem trying to lose weight which means not going out and having a few cocktails and eating BOX FOOD!! So no good FOOD or CORONA'S!

He apologized to me and then said, "I made plans to meet up with the guys tonight, do you mind if I go???" I said, JUST GO!

MEN!

Message edited 10/3/2006 7:48:05 PM.

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Helen , I saw your post earlier and I waited to reply because I wanted time to respond properly.

I know all too well what you are going through because I have been there. After one of my cycles I was sad but OK at first. A week or two later I was a freakin mess. I went back to therapy and it was so helpful. It really helped me to put things in perspective. I know I was clinically depressed and if I wasnt TTC I might have thought about going on meds. Therapy helped me get through it.

This time again, I had another breakdown about 2 weeks after my BFN. I was too embarrassed to call my therapist since I had dropped out of treatment when I felt better (just what I tell all my patients not to do). So i turned to an amazing friend who just listened and let me cry. For me that was cleansing and I am doing much better.

I really encourage you to see a therapist. I know you have mentioned you went once and it was helpful. The more you ignore it the worse it will get and can eventually control you. What you are describing sounds like depression. These are the symptoms and of them you only have to have 5 for a period of 2 weeks (most of teh day every day) to be major depression:
change in sleep (increased or decreased)
change in appetite (increased or decreased)
poor energy
poor concentration
feelings of helplessness, hopelessness, worthlessness and/or guilt
irritability sometimes
lack of interest or pleasure in things
thoughts if dying ( I pray you are not there).

Anyway, I was going to send this in an FM but if one other person can benefit from reading this I thought I should post it.

I hope you start with a therapy session since you found it helpful before. But if you just want someone to talk to, I am here.

We will get off this board

Message edited 10/3/2006 10:59:28 PM.

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helen,

i'm so sorry you are hurting

this journey can be unbearable at times. hope things turn around for you soon.

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I am so sorry you are feeling this way...I truly hope things get better real soon...

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Posted by rose825

Helen , I saw your post earlier and I waited to reply because I wanted time to respond properly.

I know all too well what you are going through because I have been there. After one of my cycles I was sad but OK at first. A week or two later I was a freakin mess. I went back to therapy and it was so helpful. It really helped me to put things in perspective. I know I was clinically depressed and if I wasnt TTC I might have thought about going on meds. Therapy helped me get through it.

This time again, I had another breakdown about 2 weeks after my BFN. I was too embarrassed to call my therapist since I had dropped out of treatment when I felt better (just what I tell all my patients not to do). So i turned to an amazing friend who just listened and let me cry. For me that was cleansing and I am doing much better.

I really encourage you to see a therapist. I know you have mentioned you went once and it was helpful. The more you ignore it the worse it will get and can eventually control you. What you are describing sounds like depression. These are the symptoms and of them you only have to have 5 for a period of 2 weeks (most of teh day every day) to be major depression:
change in sleep (increased or decreased)
change in appetite (increased or decreased)
poor energy
poor concentration
feelings of helplessness, hopelessness, worthlessness and/or guilt
irritability sometimes
lack of interest or pleasure in things
thoughts if dying ( I pray you are not there).

Anyway, I was going to send this in an FM but if one other person can benefit from reading this I thought I should post it.

I hope you start with a therapy session since you found it helpful before. But if you just want someone to talk to, I am here.

We will get off this board

Message edited 10/4/2006 9:42:41 AM.

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thanks Pauline - I have been thinking of finding a therapist, to disappear to another state and change my name

I also realised last night that basically other than this weekend, when I was away, that since August 10th, I have done nothing - no gardening, no sailing, ne exercising, no work on the house.... and I am a doer, so I think thats part of it

Hopefully we'll have good weather this weekend and I can get out there

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Its sooo easy to get stuck in a Rut. I think so many of us ahve been there and I know how easy it is to stay there versus fighting your way out. And osmetimes it is a fight, a hard struggle. Just remember we are here to help you any way we can.

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Been there. So sorry you feel crappy.