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Goldi0218
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Leslie
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Family event today
(Not sure if this is the right board but here it goes)
DH's cousin had a baby boy last week and today was his bris. I found myself sad. This of course is a ritual with deep meaning in my culture but I found myself envious. The grandfathers of the boys play a pivotal role in the ceremony. I was upset because my father will not have ever met my children and it made me miss him more.
I was also envious because having a baby is in the forefront of my mind and seems to be happening so easily for others. I am never jealous. I never say "Why them and not us?" I suppose that every time I see something that triggers that feeling, I get into a rut that is hard to get out of. We have only been TTC for two months so I know I should be easy on myself.
Anyone else have those triggers?
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2girls4now
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Re: Family event today
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Message edited 8/23/2006 12:25:23 AM.
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| Posted 8/22/06 3:05 PM |
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CellarDweller
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Re: Family event today
I totally know where you're coming from. Some days I feel like everyone in the world is pg or has a baby...except me.
In my more rational moments, I remind myself that it'll happen when it's right (or when medical intervention prevails) and try to be happy for the friends and relatives who have their BFPs.
 to all of us!!
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| Posted 8/22/06 4:08 PM |
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Goldi0218
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Re: Family event today
It is so hard to not sound jealous or even selfish when posting something like this but I feel its my time now and I dont like waiting. I think it is just a normal human emotion. All I ever wanted in my life was to be a wife and a mother. I suppose I'm halfway there!
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| Posted 8/22/06 4:16 PM |
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Eva Luna
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Re: Family event today
So sorry that you had to go through that. It must be doubly hard to be in a festive mood since your dad was such an awesome man and you're TTC.
I will say that I am never envious of anyone...ever! Yet I became a ball of jealousy last month (almost 2 months ago) when my new co-worker who had been here all of 2 weeks at that point announced that she was PG. She's my age and is a newlywed as well and she just closed on her house. Normally, these are all good things, but I got so sad and even cried to DH prompting him to ask me if I was "mentally OK".  Hmmm, we weren't even TTC! 
We're only human. I guess wanting a baby is something so strong that it makes otherwise normal and rational us behave like, well, babies. I must say this, what I felt was so unlike me that I left work and went to church because I felt awful and guilty (I'm not of any religion!) prompting my DH to ask me yet again if I was "mentally OK".  It passed...once I saw how much of an azz I was being. I never want to feel that again!
I hope you get your BFP soon!! 
Sorry for my novel! 
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| Posted 8/22/06 4:18 PM |
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Goldi0218
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Re: Family event today
I love novels!
A friend of mine just told me that my dad WILL see my kids grow up, its just that I wont get to see him see them. It brought a tear to my eye but made me smile all the same.
ETA: I dont know if Ill ever be mentally ok!!!" 
Message edited 8/22/2006 4:22:41 PM.
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| Posted 8/22/06 4:22 PM |
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Eva Luna
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Re: Family event today
Wow, that's a beautiful way of putting it...and I agree. He will see them! 
Yeah, apparently crying like a lunatic and going to church when you've never before are signs of being not "mentally OK"...he even asked if I was bipolar!
No dude, I want a BABY!!  
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| Posted 8/22/06 4:24 PM |
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Goldi0218
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Leslie
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Re: Family event today
Posted by sasha
Wow, that's a beautiful way of putting it...and I agree. He will see them!
Yeah, apparently crying like a lunatic and going to church when you've never before are signs of being not "mentally OK"...he even asked if I was bipolar!
No dude, I want a BABY!!
Tell him it would not be mentally ok if I went to church.
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| Posted 8/22/06 4:25 PM |
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Eva Luna
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Re: Family event today
Posted by Goldi0218
Posted by sasha
Wow, that's a beautiful way of putting it...and I agree. He will see them!
Yeah, apparently crying like a lunatic and going to church when you've never before are signs of being not "mentally OK"...he even asked if I was bipolar!
No dude, I want a BABY!!
Tell him it would not be mentally ok if I went to church.
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| Posted 8/22/06 4:27 PM |
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Jen2999
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Re: Family event today
Posted by Goldi0218
I love novels!
A friend of mine just told me that my dad WILL see my kids grow up, its just that I wont get to see him see them. It brought a tear to my eye but made me smile all the same.
ETA: I dont know if Ill ever be mentally ok!!!"
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