Its Official AF is here ( update 05/11 w/ Dr's appointment info)

I so dont want to be sad. I dont want to cry, I dont want to feel like God hates me, and my Body hates and understand there is a reason for all us...but I do feel this way.

Why is this feeling so heart breaking and painful?

I know you all dont have the answers. I dont have any answers myself and I just dont know where to go from here....On to IVF I guess , if I get the "new" job....If not I dont know anymore....

This was our 18th month of trying and I know some of you have had to endure so much more. I dont know how you do it...but Im saying a prayer for all of you, because your the only inspiration I have at this point.

Thanks to all of you for your continued support.

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I think at a certain point you become numb, but this thing really tugs at us and we are sooo vulnerable every month no matter how much we dont wnat to be.

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Posted by rose825



I think at a certain point you become numb, but this thing really tugs at us and we are sooo vulnerable every month no matter how much we dont wnat to be.

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I am so sorry

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Donna, I know how you feel. Everything you said about how you are feeling is exactly what I was saying to DH last week. I had 3 IUI's last month and nothing...I kindof feel ripped off in some way. I'm tired of going to the doctor every single week and I'm tired of hearing that there is nothing wrong with me and that it's just bad luck. Call me crazy, but I think when you have 3 m/c's and have been trying for over a year, something might be wrong. Anyway, hang in there and I sympathize with everything you are feeling. I cried for 3 hours last week when I found out the IUI's didn't work. I think DH thinks I've lost my mind. Maybe I have

Edited to give you some hugs:

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So sorry Donna..... as you say, maybe a new job will change everything for you, for the better!

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I'm so sorry Donna. I know how you feel.

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I just saw your post Donna- I'm so sorry

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I'm sorry Donna, it really does stink....

is it possible for you and your DH to have a little getaway? My DH did this for me and it really worked wonders for me and our relationship. It was a weekend for us to be together and just be us again. No talk of IF, IVF, etc.

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I am sorry Donna.

I'm thinking more and more you should go for the new job. It might be a good change (less stress) and a bit of a distraction for you. Who knows with a change in job and less stress your repro. system might change as well and the IUI's might be more successful.

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Thanks guys...

I saw Dr. Chu tonight. She was so dissapointed, and to be honest, I was happy to see how emotionally invested in us she is, and it made me feel better. She came in the room all sad, and Said I cannot believe you got your period...

But its on to the next month...good news..no cysts and I start another round of injectables tommorow night. We are gonna increase the dosages...

Funny too- I told her about the possible "new job" and she asked if I wanted her to recommend me to anyone...thought that was sweet.

thanks all..I am feeling a little less sad today

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Posted by dm24angel

Thanks guys...

I saw Dr. Chu tonight. She was so dissapointed, and to be honest, I was happy to see how emotionally invested in us she is, and it made me feel better. She came in the room all sad, and Said I cannot believe you got your period...

But its on to the next month...good news..no cysts and I start another round of injectables tommorow night. We are gonna increase the dosages...

Funny too- I told her about the possible "new job" and she asked if I wanted her to recommend me to anyone...thought that was sweet.

thanks all..I am feeling a little less sad today

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I am so glad that your appointment has you feeling better.

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Amazing how a good a good consult can mae us feel....glad she was so helpful Donna.

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I'm glad to hear that your Doctor made you feel better, reiterating the fact that our doctors are so important in this process. Hopefully, you will get the "new" job and/or get your BFP in the very, very near future.
Keep your chin up, your perserverance will pay off.

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I'm so sorry Donna...I don't even know what to say.

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I just don't understand why wonderful people have such luck- its not fair

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I dont know what to say to make you feel any better, just wanted to add some hugs

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Good luck Donna!

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Good Luck

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Oh Donna, I'm sorry. I just saw your post now, I'm a little out of the loop lately.

I dont know what to say, I just wanted to give you some

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You seem to have a WONDERFUL Dr. who really cares. Im so sorry