Feeling desperately lonely

I do not know what came over me today. I am feeling soooooooooooooo lonely that it actually scares me. I feel like I am the only person in the world against this huge machine, called IF and I do not know what to do and where to run. Maybe it is the waiting that is killing me. Now, that my beta is at 0 after mc, I am waiting ( YET AGAIN) for my first AF post mc. And per dr B, I have another 4 weeks of wait. I think I am losing it.

Message edited 1/24/2011 4:52:49 PM.

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i am sorry that you are feeling down. i definitely understand the loneliness that you feel. Even if you have friends/family to talk to, I feel like no one truly understands unless they are going through it. That's why this board is so great bc there are so many amazing women to offer support. hang in there...4 weeks will get here faster than you think!!

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On the hardest parts of IF is the waiting.... During this wait, try to do things that make you happy and things that you can't do during fertility treatments.

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we've all been there. I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better.
I agree with the above poster, do things that make you happy and stuff you wouldn't normally do during a cycle. It doesn't seem it now but 4 week will go by fast. Hang in there and we are here if you need to talk

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We've all felt that way! I know the waiting is horrible, but it ends up going quickly.

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Hang in there. Unfortunately, IF can often make u feel alone. Even though these boards help so much, its our own individual battles/thoughts, etc. I remember feeling so lonely all the time, like it was just me fighting this unknown 'thing' with no control. You'll be ok, you'll make it through and these board do help. You need to go treat yourself, as corny as it sounds, go to a movie or shopping or whatever, maybe a massage - it does help just get escape for a bit.

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Posted by angel333

On the hardest parts of IF is the waiting.... During this wait, try to do things that make you happy and things that you can't do during fertility treatments.

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First of all
Second-you are not alone.
Third -You have every reason to have such strong emotions. It's normal, routine like if you ask me. Miscarriage will take the wind out of your sails, but eventually it gets better. And when I say eventually I mean day by day, minute by minute.

Even though I can't make you feel better, I hope I can make you feel less lonely. That's why we're here. That's what support is all about.

And you have FM!

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I think you stole the thoughts out of my head. I was crying about this last night to DH. It's such a lonely journey at times...

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I am so sorry. Those forced break cycles are the worst. Way worse than the 2ww. As pp mentioned, I would do things I couldn't normally do-mainly drink, and yes, A LOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I'm so sorry that you are feeling this way. I'm not sure how low you are feelilng but I honestly think that sometimes professional help can be a great benefit. I do feel myself slipping into a dark place at times and if it ever got to the stage where I couldn't pull myself back out I would definitely seek help from a counsellor.

As the other girls have said do things that make you feel good: Buy something (even a lipstick if money is tight) or have a girls night out or in with wine and good laughs, go to the gym or yoga (endorphins make you naturally feel better). I usually find that just being with people can help me forget my worries.

Take care of yourself

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I'm sorry you're having an extra-rough time right now. Please know that you're not alone and that we are all here for you. I think that it is particularly hard to be waiting, like you are now, b/cc there is nothing active for you to do, and there is even less control over things than usual.

Please take this time to pamper yourself, like the other ladies said. Drink lots of wine, go for a massage, eat sushi, and just allow yourself to enjoy what you can. It is so hard not to focus on IF all day, every day, but you need to try to find things to keep yourself busy. I don't know if you're a craft person or not (I'm not), but maybe there's some kind of project you can work on during this waiting period.

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It is complete torture at times, the waiting. I am a strong believer that it is good to cry and get angry, mainly just let it out. Don't let it fester and grow inside, because it might make you start resenting all of it, I know I got to that point. You are not alone, because when you are crying, we are either crying or just finished crying.

Like the ladies said take this time to focus on you, because once that LO comes along you will not even have time to breathe. Drink, go out with hubby, friends, anything that will keep you busy. I hope you feel better today.

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I'm so sorry...ditto to what the above posters said....it's not an easy process, but try to keep your eye on the prize!!!

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thank you for your support, ladies!