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kicking, screaming, crying, pouting. Now I know what my 2 yr old feels like! I know I should not have even had any hope for this month with only BD'ing 1 time, but I did. Today I go to the bathroom and there is brown spotting. Nothing on the panty liner (sorry, TMI) since this afternoon at 2 which leaves the back of my mind still thinking....well....maybe.....I usually get spotting a day or 2 before AF really shows, but that shouldn't be til wed or thurs. I guess I was just not prepared mentally for that today..

I am confused b/c AF has ALWAYS been clock work. Now since the mc it has been late 2 days, early 2 days.....just weird.

I am angry because no one in my life even brings up the fact that I am trying to have a baby. or had a mc just 3 mos ago. (except DH of course) I know people get upset b/c people ask them too often, but I feel the opposite. I feel like I want to talk to someone, but no one asks.....maybe they don't care? I don't know.......

I am sad b/c I want another baby so bad. It was so easy the first time around and I didn't even have any idea how easy it was or how lucky I was.

I feel guilty.....maybe somehow its my fault. Maybe b/c I am about 15 lbs over where I want to be and was when I got PG with DS. I feel guilty because so many women here have been trying a lot longer and have gone thru a lot more so I should stop feeling sorry for myself.

Whoa....guess I needed to vent some things. I'm sorry.....I didn't really intend for this post to take this direction. Thanks for reading if you got this far. Please dont quote b/c I might remove or edit....you never know, lurkers

Message edited 1/6/2009 3:04:07 PM.

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I am so sorry-we are all here for you

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I am so sorry you feel this way. It's OK to be upset and frustrated and feel guitly but only for ONE DAY!!!! No more.. allow yourself that day of self pitty...cry...scream,,do whatever you need to do.. the next day...pick yourself up and think positive again.

People probably don't know what to say to you. They don't know you need to talk...you should reach out to someone you trust will listen the way you need them to listen!!

Good luck!!!

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Posted by Linda1003

I am so sorry you feel this way. It's OK to be upset and frustrated and feel guitly but only for ONE DAY!!!! No more.. allow yourself that day of self pitty...cry...scream,,do whatever you need to do.. the next day...pick yourself up and think positive again.

People probably don't know what to say to you. They don't know you need to talk...you should reach out to someone you trust will listen the way you need them to listen!!

Good luck!!!

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Please feel free to vent away

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I will be praying for your. I cannot imagine what it is like to have a miscarriage, especially when you want to pregnant so badly. Rather than hoping or waiting for someone to ask about how you are feeling about the miscarraige, just start talking to those closest to you. They may not know what to say so they don't say anything at all. Start with your DH/significant other or your siblings or BFF. But don't feel badly about the way you feel. You are entitled to your feelings.

I tend to internalize things and feel sorry for myself first. DH is not always the most empathetic but he listens. He is not always tactful but he always reminds me that things could be worse and I do have more control over my frame of mind, feelings, and actions than I choose to think. My BFF listens and then delicately helps me see the other side and get back on my feet.

At the end of it all, when you feel down about not being pregnant, think of your baby and be grateful. You've been blessed!

(Sorry for my rant. Writing this is as therapeutic for me as I hope it is for you!)

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It's good to get it out

I know exactly how you feel about the the whole people not bringing it up thing and m/c --I have cried to DH about that so many nights--it hurts cause you feel so alone
i'm really sorry you feel like this and if you want to talk FM me --I'm always here for you

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You are completely just in your frustration-we are led to believe it is really really easy to get pregnant and then life teaches us otherwise.

I think people refrain from asking too much because they are afraid of saying the wrong thing. If you want to talk about it, I think you should just do that, talk. People will listen and try to comfort you and be your sounding board.

Lots of these and, of course,

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I am so sorry It's good to let it out. If you have more to let out we are here to listen.

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I'm so sorry! Please vent as much as you'd like to!

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That's what we are all here for!

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I hope you are feeling better today.


I've had two miscarriages and its never brought up. I think it's a very hard thing for people to bring up in a conversation even if they want to. People also dont want to upset you, so they choose not to mention it.


I'm sorry you're having such a rough week.

Message edited 1/6/2009 7:49:37 AM.

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Thank you ladies for all your support, it really helps on those feeling crappy days. AF is here in full force although she wasn't due til Friday. Guess I don't have to bring any tests to FL now......I sure wish we didn't find out about not being PG right smack dab in the middle of raging PMS, but I guess it is what it is right! DH and I were talking this morning, he is really sad too, but we aren't giving up. If nothing happens this cycle then I am going to make an appointment with my dr and just make sure everything is ok. See if he has any suggestions and what he thinks I should do. I'm already 34 and i'm not getting any younger.....thanks again for listening. You are all so sweet.

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Posted by MRSBA

Posted by RyansMama

Thank you ladies for all your support, it really helps on those feeling crappy days. AF is here in full force although she wasn't due til Friday. Guess I don't have to bring any tests to FL now......I sure wish we didn't find out about not being PG right smack dab in the middle of raging PMS, but I guess it is what it is right! DH and I were talking this morning, he is really sad too, but we aren't giving up. If nothing happens this cycle then I am going to make an appointment with my dr and just make sure everything is ok. See if he has any suggestions and what he thinks I should do. I'm already 34 and i'm not getting any younger.....thanks again for listening. You are all so sweet.

I know how you feel, I'm 34 too.
I really did feel better after having talked with the doc -

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I'm sorry

I'm right there with you. We both miscarried around the same time in early Nov and I've had 4 AFs since then. My cycle is so out of whack now like it never has been. I can't keep up like this, I'm so worn out. But, this is your vent, and I'm sorry, but I have every belief that our time will come.

Do call your Dr. I just called mine today and am waiting for a call back.

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Posted by RyansMama

Posted by MRSBA

Posted by RyansMama

Thank you ladies for all your support, it really helps on those feeling crappy days. AF is here in full force although she wasn't due til Friday. Guess I don't have to bring any tests to FL now......I sure wish we didn't find out about not being PG right smack dab in the middle of raging PMS, but I guess it is what it is right! DH and I were talking this morning, he is really sad too, but we aren't giving up. If nothing happens this cycle then I am going to make an appointment with my dr and just make sure everything is ok. See if he has any suggestions and what he thinks I should do. I'm already 34 and i'm not getting any younger.....thanks again for listening. You are all so sweet.

I know how you feel, I'm 34 too.
I really did feel better after having talked with the doc -

Can you tell me about your visit? How long have you been trying? What the dr said? In FM of course, if you are more comfortable with that. If it is too personal I totally understand.