the episode with the "Super fans", and how "real" is reality tv?


Hey Guys!

I often get asked if reality tv is actually "real". The answer is: "yes" and "no". It is not real in the sense that, how often in life would you be put into a situation of: a bunch of girls, forced to live together, and forced to compete for the same man...and forced to live together without TV, internet, books, radio, and not being allowed to leave the house. So of course that is not a "real" setting or scenario, and will obviously lead to events taking place that probably would not occur in real life. However, it WAS real in the sense that nothing was scripted, and for the most part, the producers did not tell us what to say or do, (but they do occasionally encourage us, or "egg us on"). And of course, as I said, I purposely (and obviously) made a big effort to rattle all the other girls. Yes, that "*****" side of me is very real...however, in "real" life, it RARELY ever comes out. So all of this tells you that reality tv is both "real", AND not "real", just depending on which way you want to look at it.

The other thing you have to keep in mind is that the producers can do whatever they want with editing. For the most part, the way Rock Of Love was edited is pretty true to how everything actually went down in the house. They didn't really change things up. But they DID leave quite a bit out. For the most part, I'm pretty happy with the way I'm being portrayed on the show. I WANTED - and set out to be - the dominant, devious, "puppet master" of the house. So the way it was edited is very true to that. However, I have to admit that I was a bit disturbed by one thing that did take place on the "super fans" episode that recently aired. Something very tragic happened in my life not too long ago...my Mother, who I was EXTREMELY close with, suddenly passed away. I have always been a very happy person with a positive outlook on life. But when she passed away, it put me into an extreme state of sadness and mourning. Even though I had never taken medication in my life, after she died, I started taking anti-depressants, which helped me immensely with the healing process. On the show, the "super fans" asked me if I was in therapy, and I said "yes". Then they said "are you on medication?", I said "yes". What REALLY happened, was I said "yes, I am taking medication to help me heal from the death of my Mother". One of the "super fan" girls said "I'm so sorry to hear that. I experienced a death in my family too, so I can relate." But of course, they didn't show any of that. Instead, they just showed the girl saying, "Do you take medication", and then cut to me saying "yes", but then they cut out the explanation of WHY I was taking medicine. I have no problems with the producers making me out to be "the crazy one" on the show...that was part of my own plan and my own doing, too. However, to take something so personal to me...the death of my beloved Mother...and use it against me on the show...I thought that was pretty ****** of them. But, at the end of the day, they're just trying to make it a good show...so what can you do. But I did feel the need to write a blog about it...I thought that was something that should be explained to you guys.

Anyway, thanks for continuing to watch the show, and for continuing to show your love to me! You guys rock!!!

Take care,

Lacey