Not a good day... Extreamly Sad

I had to go this morning for follow up bloodwork to make sure my beta is going down. Which I know it must be because I've been taking HPTs every morning we found out I would m/c and the line was gone today.

I was having blood drawn and there was another woman having hers done too and in her hand she had her first sono picture. She must have had her ER and ET the same time I did. Today would have been the day we had our first sono to see how many sacs there were. I wish I hadn't told my husband not to come with me this morning, because I lost it in the car on the way home. Good thing the office is 2 miles from my house.

I've calmed down for now, but I'm such a mess. My husband would have stayed home, but he has a huge meeting in LIC today presenting in front of the Executive Board, so I made him go.

I may go for a run later when it warms up a bit, maybe that will help.

This waiting to m/c is torture.

ETA: Heard from RMA - Beta is down to 16.7, I have to go back on Monday. She thinks I'll probably start m/c by the end of this week based on when I stopped the progesterone.

Message edited 4/2/2008 12:30:22 PM.

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I've said it before, and I'll say it again, having a miscarriage changes you forever. And I can speak from my own experience, NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE SAYS, it DOES make you appreciate it that much more when you do get that BFP and have your baby. Which, you will... it will happen for you, just a little longer than some others, but do not lose the faith.

And in the meantime, indulge in your sadness. In helps me to think about it this way - the sadness, frustration, anger - it's all part of the beauty of being human.

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I'm so sorry.

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I wish I could give you a real hug. There is nothing I can say that will take the pain away. Having a miscarriage is devestating. And its very hard to go through... especially when its so early most people just don't understand that it is a LOSS.

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My heart is breaking for you right now. Please know that we are all here for you and although we can't give you real hugs, they are being sent your way.


I will keep you in my prayers.

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I am so sorry! It is so difficult to go through, I completely understand. My prayers are with you and your husband.

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I'm so sorry

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I'm so sorry. I wish I could say something to make you feel better

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So sorry. I competely understand your feellings and how hard it is. Hang in there...

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I am sorry

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I'm so sorry sweetie.

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oh Michelle, i am so so sorry you will get through this hon!

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I'm so, so sorry. How come they decided not to do a d&c?

I hope this happens quickly, I know its been a long torturing wait for you

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I just want to give you so many hugs right now. I am so sorry for your pain. This process has to be one of the most difficult in life. I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better. But know you have support

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Posted by LaurenExp

I'm so, so sorry. How come they decided not to do a d&c?

I hope this happens quickly, I know its been a long torturing wait for you

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I know it really sucks. I remember as soon as I got the BFP I thought "oh I'm on to the next phase yadda yadda yadda"... and then you find yourself back at the same place. I know it probably doesn't make a difference but I was happy that I never got to do the sono because I didn't see anything.

Going for a run is a good thing. I think i rebelled and did anything that I wouldn't be able to do if I was pg. So, I ate a lot of sushi, brie cheese (i was a real rebel and then I got myself right back into the game (I have been calling it the game recently and I don't know why).

My best friend who also went through all this said to me (and I'm saying it to you), something wasn't right and you wouldn't want that. When it's good and healthy and strong it will stick. That is what you want.

I didn't' get pg through IVF, so I had to go into my gyn/oby office after my m/cf or follow up blood work. It seemed everyone was pg in the office, like 30 women. I never noticed that with my normal check ups. I was a wreck inside. so, I know how you must have felt with that woman next to you.

None of this is easy.

BA

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I am so incredibly sorry you are going through this. We are here for you.

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Heard from RMA - Beta is down to 16.7, I have to go back on Monday. She thinks I'll probably start m/c by the end of this week based on when I stopped the progesterone.

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I am so sorry you are going throgh this

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Im so sorry Michelle.

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Oh Michelle....I'm so sorry