Ok.. i dont normally ask for prayers as you know.. but I could use some positive thoughts (long)
Or even PRAYERS. This time I'm practically begging for them.
I just sent an email to my FIL. I am asking for resolution on a pledge he made that he has not fullfilled.
This promise was supposed to make our lives easier. Instead he's not come through and our life has been very hard. I've found a way, I've kept my chin up, I'm appreciative of what I have and what I've done.
If he fails in his promise completely I will survive, I will find a way and I will not look back.
His broken promise is what actually made the decision to move to Texas so very easy for me. But that only solved some of our problems and we are still struggling. I think without his help I'll be back on my feet completely in about 5yrs.
My email today spelled out clearly his promise, our compromise back in the beginning of the year to give him more time and now our sitituation.
My MIL and he have asked to come visit us in Texas (as snowbirds). They have made expectations for my BIL's wedding next year (??) in Hawaii. They make all sorts of plans but don't realize we just can not ignore the circumstances they have left us in due to this broken promise.
Obviously this is money
Its not a lot by NY standards but its more than 10% of a house here in Texas. I took a loan out for the exact amount but now that's weighing me down too.
This man has no empathic bone in his body. Its not a cruel thing he does, it just is what he is. When asked to his siblings how this happened it was explained to me he can not relate to how things affect others because nothing has ever affected him. He has never felt pain or sorrow or struggle. He has no understanding or sympathy for such things.
He once told my hubby that his dying grandmother's bloat (she was in a coma for over a year) was due to gasses in her body and poked her body
He told me AJ looks "Better now, more like a baby cause she was really ugly before, but now she almost looks decent"
Honestly he has no clue how this affects people. I am not 100% positive he gets what his broken promise means to us, nor do I think i could explain it to such a man.
My hubby gave me the OK to send an email today and now im sooooooooooo super nervous!
He's sort of religious - non practicing Jew. So I ask.. whatever powers you believe in.. I ask for them to give him the right answer to give us. I ask that I have the strength to live with that answer.
And I pray its the answer we want.
What's on the line? A home for my daughter to grow up in.
