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MrsMessina
Thankful for our miracles!
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So I thought I was doing well....
and thought I had healed (as much as I think I'll ever heal). My 2nd fresh IVF cycle recently failed... and right before Christmas my FET failed. My EDD would've been April 14th, and I keep getting things in the mail (which I'm not fully understanding either, because I think I only signed up for 1 of those baby websites to get the calendar, etc... online and I updated the account to show I'm not pregnant anymore, right after my m/c...). Last week formula came... actual formula- 2 cans. I'm going to donate them to our church in hopes of helping someone who can't afford it... and today I got some packet in the mail that said "you don't need to tell anyone you're pregnant anymore as your baby bump says it all--- you're almost there!" I immediately started at the mailbox.... it's like everything is coming back up to the surface. I really thought by now I'd be pg again and even though I knew I'd have a hard time with the date approaching, at least I'd have a positive thing to focus on to help me get thru it. I feel like such a failure... Sorry... I really needed to vent and knew you girls would understand.
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Posted 3/9/09 10:27 PM |
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dajc23
My Loves :)
Member since 1/09 4980 total posts
Name: Dana
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Re: So I thought I was doing well....
I'm so sorry
Your time WILL come soon. it's hard to get these little "reminders" from time to time but just keep in mind that you will be pregnant again and you will have a little bundle of joy to love and hold
We are here for you
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Posted 3/10/09 7:20 AM |
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sleepie76
enjoying every minute
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Re: So I thought I was doing well....
I'm so sorry. That is a lot of hits in a row.
Your time will come!
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Posted 3/10/09 7:40 AM |
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WNA01
my 2 boys
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Re: So I thought I was doing well....
oo shannon im so sorry! I also signed up from 1 website which i unregistered from back in april when i mc. Over the summer fall winter and even NOW im getting baby stuff. Ive gotten 4 powdered cans of formula. I made dh take care of them. I even registered my # with that website and they called me and i told them to please stop sending me stuff bc i mc. They said they were sorry but the stuff continued to come
I know its hard and im sorry ur going thru this. Call me later on today
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Posted 3/10/09 8:17 AM |
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MaMaTeenie
Party of 5
Member since 4/08 6489 total posts
Name: Mommy
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Re: So I thought I was doing well....
I'm so sorry!
You are NOT a failure. I know how hard it is.....sorry I don't have the words to make you feel better, but here is a really big
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Posted 3/10/09 8:37 AM |
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CrankyPants
I'm cranky
Member since 7/06 18178 total posts
Name: Mama Cranky
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Re: So I thought I was doing well....
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Posted 3/10/09 9:10 AM |
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ETAB
Mother Mary Pray for us
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Re: So I thought I was doing well....
I am so sorry.... those constant reminders never get easier...
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Posted 3/10/09 9:59 AM |
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MetsGirl07
LIF O2 Vendor
Member since 12/07 16202 total posts
Name: Deanna
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Re: So I thought I was doing well....
i am so sorry Shannon..
i know how hard those reminders can be.. i get formula, samples.. etc.. and it just kills me.. it never ends.. its always there..
but we have to fight through it and not let it bring us down again...
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Posted 3/10/09 10:48 AM |
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Ang-Rich
Beyond Compare
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Re: So I thought I was doing well....
I am so sorry...so very, very sorry
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Posted 3/10/09 11:41 AM |
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Marcie
Complete Happiness :)
Member since 5/05 27789 total posts
Name: LOVE being a Mommy!
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Re: So I thought I was doing well....
Shannon, I am soooooo sorry
Honestly, I think for me, my due date was even harder for me that going through everything that I did with my ectopic. For weeks and weeks after my due date, I was in the biggest hole that I have ever been in my life and I struggled alot to get out of it.
I too, figured I would be pregnant by the time my due date would have rolled around and I know for me, that made it worse.
I am sorry that you are feeling what you are feeling and if you need anything, you know I am always here
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Posted 3/10/09 11:53 AM |
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CAH127
LIF Adult
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Posted 3/10/09 11:54 AM |
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MrsMessina
Thankful for our miracles!
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Re: So I thought I was doing well....
Thanks everyone I just hate this feeling... we've had a rough past month or so and I'm just not sure what our next steps are- and we've maxed out our lifetime infertilty coverage, so that's not helping. Today's no better..... this just sucks.
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Posted 3/10/09 1:14 PM |
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sweetdreamz1181
Baby Girl on the way!
Member since 1/08 2186 total posts
Name: Jackie
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Re: So I thought I was doing well....
so sorry
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Posted 3/10/09 1:25 PM |
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LemonHead
Sour Girl
Member since 3/08 5271 total posts
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Re: So I thought I was doing well....
I'm sorry
My due date was last week- and I'm still getting little reminders in the mail. It's hard.
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Posted 3/10/09 4:29 PM |
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QueSeraSera
Sugar & Spice
Member since 7/08 1351 total posts
Name: Liz
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Re: So I thought I was doing well....
I am sorry you are having a rough time....
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Posted 3/10/09 5:20 PM |
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ihilani
LIF Adolescent
Member since 9/07 858 total posts
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Re: So I thought I was doing well....
That's just awful.
I'm so sorry.
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Posted 3/10/09 8:19 PM |
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ktcmblondie
LIF Infant
Member since 9/08 201 total posts
Name: Kristy
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Re: So I thought I was doing well....
Oh I'm so sorry to hear that things have been so rough for you. I've seen your previous posts on these boards and wanted you to know that your obvious will and determination and the compassion you have for others people's struggles has truly been a presence and reminder to me that we're not alone and that we're here for each. Especially you now in your time of need. So sorry that things haven't been going well.
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Posted 3/11/09 10:46 AM |
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SJSM
LIF Adolescent
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Re: So I thought I was doing well....
I'm sorry I hope everything works out for you...
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Posted 3/11/09 12:42 PM |
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MrsMessina
Thankful for our miracles!
Member since 2/07 7254 total posts
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Re: So I thought I was doing well....
Posted by ktcmblondie Oh I'm so sorry to hear that things have been so rough for you. I've seen your previous posts on these boards and wanted you to know that your obvious will and determination and the compassion you have for others people's struggles has truly been a presence and reminder to me that we're not alone and that we're here for each. Especially you now in your time of need. So sorry that things haven't been going well.
Wow, thank you. You just paid me quite a compliment, and I needed that today. for all of us.
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Posted 3/11/09 3:17 PM |
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Sneezy
Thankful for my miracle!
Member since 5/05 1939 total posts
Name: Jen
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Re: So I thought I was doing well....
Despite my pleas to be taken off lists, I got a ton of stuff after my ectopic. It was gut-wrenching.
Now that I am pregnant again, I hesitate signing up for anything because of my experience last time.
I'm sorry, Shannon.
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Posted 3/12/09 4:23 PM |
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dooodles
When you wish upon a star
Member since 5/05 11997 total posts
Name: Because 2 people fell in love
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Re: So I thought I was doing well....
Shannon, I am only seeing this now and want to say how truly sorry I am that these painful reminders continue to pop up I went through the same when we lost our son - and this is with the hospitals putting the stop to them (they have better information and I can contact the social worker from the NICU we dealt with to find out how she did it). It didn't stop completely, but I did not receive the amount I should have.
I know the constant reminders (like the date alone isn't the worst one) are horrible to deal with and just one more form of torture to deal with
I am here if you need me
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Posted 3/13/09 10:06 AM |
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