Something dm2angel said has stayed with me..

I don't remember which post (and I tried to do a search), but she simply said "our faith is the only thing we can control".

That spoke volumes to me. Yesterday I wrote "this sux" because I don't know how I'll handle it if this second iui doesn't work. But then I thought about it and thought that yes, I can have a positive attitude and continue to believe in me, dh, and the possibility of us having children. You have to hold on to something. I have to believe that it's more than just modern medicine that helps us thru these times.

...does this make sense to anyone????

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Yes it does!

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YES it makes sense...and I have tears in my eyes cause I can barely handle the sadness you all feel and I know it and wish I could erase it.

And I remember how many times I wanted to give up, and then I thought of all the girls on here whos struggles were tougher then mine, and much longer and I thought, if they have faith, so can I...And my DH was a BIG motivator....he refused to let me think bad thoughts when I expressed them.

He believed it would happen.

Its soo hard to believe that. I think possibly one of the hardest things ever ...and if you can even for a little bit, I give you SOOOOO much credit.

You all will be mommies, if you desire it, one way or another.....

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I agree 100%. No matter how difficult it is and on days like yesterday when I get really bad news, I don't lose my faith.
I may get angry or sad, but I think the best thing is a positive attitude and you just have to pick yourself up and start all over again.
At some point, it will happen and I totally believe that.

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Makes complete sense!

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As my Mum would say "If at first you don't succeed, try, try , try again"

She has a lot of sayings and although we all roll our eyes when she comes out with another one most of them are true & make sense

Another of hers "Catherine, what doesn't kill you, just makes you stonger"

So I might get bummed and come on here to vent & cry but I really do believe that I will have my babies someday.

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Makes perfect sense to me, too. If you don't have a positive attitude, what else do you have?

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Hey Suzy,

I heard this song by Ricardo Arjona and it rang so true to me...reading this post made me think that maybe you'll like it too. I hope you understand Spanish!

Ricardo Arjona - De Vez en Mes

De Vez en Mes on Rhapsody

The lyrics:

De Vez En Mes - Ricardo Arjona

Genre/Lang. : Latin

De vez en mes te haces artista
Dejando un cuadro impresionista
Debajo del edredón

*Once in a month you become an artist
Leaving an impressionist painting
Under your comforter (blanket)*

De vez en mes con tu acuarela
Pintas jirones de ciruelas
Que van a dar hasta el colchón

*Once in a month with your water color
You paint plum shreds
That go all the way to (end up in) the mattress*

De vez en mes un detergente
Se roba el arte intermitente
De tu vientre y su creación,
Si es natural cuando eres dama
Que pintes rosas en la cama
Una vez de vez en mes…

*Once in a month a detergent
Robs the intermittent art
Of your womb and its creation,
If it's natural when you're a lady
To paint roses on the bed
Once in a month...*

De vez en mes
La cigüeña se suicida
Y ahí estas tú tan deprimida
Buscándole una explicación

*Once in a month
The stork commits suicide
And there you are so depressed
Asking it for an explanation*

De vez en mes
El cielo te roba el milagro
El tiempo te hace un calendario
De una vez, de vez en mes

*Once in a month
The heavens rob you of a miracle
Time makes you a calendar
All at once, once in a month*

De vez en mes
Tú me propones
Huelga de hambre
Yo algo de imaginación.

*Once in a month
You propose me
A hunger strike
I (make me) something of imagination.*

De vez en mes la luna nueva
Viene a quitar lo que renueva
Y a colocar otra ilusión

*Once in a month the new moon
Comes to take away what it renews
And places a new illusion (desire)*

De vez en mes soy invisible
Para intentar en lo posible
No promover tu mal humor

*Once in a month I am invisible
So that I can in all that's posible
Not promote your bad mood (humor)*

De vez en mes no hay quien te aguante
Y es tu pecado estar distante
Y otro peor quedarme ahí
Y aunque hay receso obligatorio
Y el cielo se hace un purgatorio
Te amo más de vez en mes

*Once in a month no one can stand you
And it's your sin to be distant
And a worse one is for me to stay here
And even though there's obligatory recess
And the heavens become a purgatory
I love you more, once in a month*

De vez en mes
La cigüeña se suicida
Y ahí estas tú tan deprimida
Buscándole una explicación

*Once in a month
The stork commits suicide
And there you are so depressed
Asking it for an explanation*

De vez en mes
El cielo te roba el milagro
El tiempo te hace un calendario
De una vez, de vez en mes

*Once in a month
The heavens rob you of a miracle
Time makes you a calendar
All at once, once in a month*

De vez en mes
Tú me propones
Huelga de hambre
Yo algo de imaginación.

*Once in a month
You propose me
A hunger strike
I (make me) something of imagination.*

De vez en mes
Tu vientre ensaya para cuna
Tu humor depende de la luna
Y yo te quiero un poco más

*Once in a month
Your womb rehearses to be a crib
And your humor (mood) depends on the moon
And I love you a little more*

De vez en mes
A ti te da por tomar siestas
A tus hormonas por las fiestas
Y el culpable siempre yo

*Once in a month
You feel like taking naps
To your hormones for the parties
And the guilty one is always me*

De vez en mes
No hay más reloj que el de tu cuerpo
No hay más luz que la que das
De vez en mes

*Once in a month
There is no clock other than your body
There is no light other than yours (that you emit)
Once in a month*

I have to confess that it made me sob pretty hard, but that was cathartic, and knowing that not only are we not alone, but a wonderful man wrote a song to his beloved about it, well, that is just awesome.

Love you girl!!

ETA: I added the English translation (as well as I could, I hope it makes sense to all that read it). I hope its cathartic to others as well. The song is in Spanish, but the lyrics speak volumes. It's a love anthem like no others...no one here is alone! I think it's an amazingly beautiful and real love song from a man (who is just yummy! ) to his love who is having the hardest time conceive...something she so badly wants to do.

Wishing you all many blessings and baby dust...maybe I'll be here earlier than 2 years, who knows!

May all of you graduate soon!!

Message edited 3/17/2007 9:51:45 AM.

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Bumping for all of you lovelies, I added the English translation, it's a tear jerker, but I hope it helps heal some.

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I agree. It is very hard at times. Today I was really down about TTC. We're doing everything as we should and nothing is happening. It probably didn't help that we were preparing for another open house, and again, we are doing things as we should, but our place isn't selling.

I get very frustrated over the helplessness you must accept at a certain point. But I have to believe that if a baby is meant for us, we will have one. If this isn't meant for us, than there is another path for us that may be just as wonderful. That's what I keep telling myself.