babydreaming
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Thoughts on BF after 12 weeks
My dear baby,
Before you were born, I decided that I wanted to BF you and I was intent on succeeding. After you were born, it was a lot of hard work. The first two weeks were probably the hardest weeks. Nursing you every 2-3 hours seemed crazy but I did it - and waking up in the middle of the night was not a problem. At 1 week, when I was in pain because the skin on my nipples were peeling and I was crying cause I didn’t think I had enough milk – we somehow made it through.
After the first few weeks, we finally got into a routine. Around 6 weeks, it didn’t even hurt and I enjoyed seeing how big you got because of me. I especially came to love our middle of the night feedings – because that was OUR alone time together. I loved how your eyes would just look at me – my heart would melt. At 8 weeks when I went to work, it got hard again. The milk was not coming as fast as you liked and I know the stress of me returning to work was hard on you also. At 10 weeks when you decided you preferred the bottle to me, I sat crying while feeding you with a bottle. Now at 12 weeks, I realized this morning, we are again in a routine. You are nursing only in the early morning and bottle feeding during the day and evening. Although I would have preferred you nurse as much as possible, I finally was able to let go and figure out a compromise that worked for both of us.
My sweet baby, I have to tell you, this has been the most amazing, frustrating, loving, hardest thing I have ever done in my life. This morning I was so sad thinking that you may eventually stop your morning nursings also. Until then, I plan on enjoying it as much as possible…..and will NEVER remember the pain but just the joy of this experience.
Love,
Mommy
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jodi714
Love my little girl!
Member since 2/06 3621 total posts
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Jodi
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Re: Thoughts on BF after 12 weeks
That brought tears to my eyes! 
I know how you feel. BFing is soooo hard but soooo rewarding. I haven't returned to work yet (1.5 weeks to go) but I part of why I dread it is that we will lose several nursing sessions a day. As hard as it is, we have such a bond because of it.
You are doing such a wonderful thing for your baby!  
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