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In continuation of my recent thread...

I use to be very optimistic, then would go nuts every month. The last few months I have tried not to be so I would not be disappointed, but would still be, by the end of my 2WW secretly hopeful.

This month I am feeling pretty optimistic. (Ok I sit here having trouble even typing this). I swear my boobs feel different. (more nipple soreness than boob ache-sorry if its TMI). Last night I was pooped at 8PM (whihc isnt terribly unusual for me). But I am not sure if my optimism is making my brain think these things. I want to be optimistic so badly, but I am sooo afraid of being hurt again.

So 7dpo, 7 more to go. Trying not to think about it, but it seems impossible.

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I know the feeling and don't....when we started trying I wanted to be PG so badly and in that 2WW I obsessed so much. I knew I had to relax about it and my best advice is to just know that it will happen when the time for you and your DH is perfect for you.

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Pauline- you said one thing we understand for sure...., its impossible to not think about it , that is the absoulute WORST. If I just knew AF was coming, I could be prepared, but I dont know. I have a ton of symptoms, and they could be either thing..

Hang in there...stay positive....It helps!!! Im praying for ya!!

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Posted by dm24angel



Hang in there...stay positive....It helps!!! Im praying for ya!!

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I hear ya! I've been crampy every day for the past week - I have no clue what that means. It totally feels like AF is coming, but because I'm on medication, she's staying away. So there's no way for me to know for sure what's going on until the PG test. But I haven't felt any other symptoms, and it worries me .

All we can do is take it day by day, and see what happens!

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So today I resigned myself not to think about it. Then I go to work and at one point I thought I smelled burning rubber another time perm chemical. A woman I work with who knows nothing of my TTC, says "Sounds like you must be pregnant".

Oh gosh... I cant wait till this 2WW is over.

8dpo, hopes still up

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Isn't this crazy? It's like a ride on the runaway train.

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The runaway train, what a great name for the 2WW!!!!!!

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not only that but do you remember the 90's song by Soul Asylum called Runaway Train?
I think most of the lines are pretty darn appropriate.


Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

CHORUS
Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here no there

Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything is cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

CHORUS

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin' at the rain
Little out of touch, little insane
Just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train never comin' back
Runaway train tearin' up the track
Runaway train burnin' in my veins
Runaway but it always seems the same

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wow, it is pretty darn appropriate. I hope we all get off this runaway train soon.

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NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


STAY AWAY AF!!!!!!!!

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I was a TOTAL BIOTCH today. Seems like TBAF is raring up. I hope not but not so hopeful today.

9dpo

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Donna, again I am sorry to hear the news...I was hoping you would get your BFP this cycle

and

Pauling, there is still hope for you!!!!&&&&&&&&&&&&&

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11dpo and spotting.


off for the weekend, I'll try and check in if I can.

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11 dpo spotting can be a very good thing ? Did you test pauline ?

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didnt test, but for me this is normal

Final conclusion:

NOT TO BE!!!

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