update or vent idk...

IDK what it is, but I'm kind of sad today...

It's been almost 10 months since the mc.... and we have been trying since then with no results.
We do Deanna's Plan... and still nothing!! I'm so pumped full of sperm... and yet not pregnant!!!

I try to stay away from some of the ttc/pregnancy/mc/infertility boards most of the time just to keep things off my mind but I can't help but cruise them once in a while....

We had an appt with Dr. B. 2 weeks ago and he sent me prescriptions for testing on both of us... and I'm scared to have them done so I haven't made the quest appt's yet but it's weighing on me and I know I need to go. He's thinking PCOS for me and prob no spem issues with DH, but still we are going to test them anyway just to be sure.

I think it's the holiday's coming that's really getting to me... I keep thiking that I should have a 2 month old and be looking for cute little baby halloween costumes and then Christmas being right around the corner.... and yet here we are with nothing....

sorry... just one of those days....

I've gained SO MUCH weight since all of this ... I need to start doing WW... I think that will help my overall morale about this whole situation and possibly getting healthier will improve my chances of getting pregnant....

PS- and then I keep hearing of all these pregnancies and for a few seconds I almost cry!! Esp when it's someone who tried for 1 - 3 months and it was just so easy!! Also, seeing those who got pregnant after me having a baby before me... that's really hard....

Message edited 10/15/2010 10:08:04 AM.

Re: update or vent idk...

im so sorry kerri..

dont matter how long ago it was u have to know its ok to be sad every now and then ..time will make it easier

i think its a good idea u and john both get tested..just so you know what u r dealing with

i went and got tested and now i know i have pcos and im not ovulating..im sad i have to take drugs to make me get preggo and i have some higher risks but if this is what it takes then so be it..

whatever the reslults of the tests..it will put ur mind at ease knowing ok this is what we have to do..

we tried for months and we have had no results so im hoping the meds and the opks will get me preggo

as for the weight thing..1.we r walking the park if u want cause lord knows my fat as$ needs it..and 2.i know how beautiful u look right now..anyone who has not met kerri let me tell u she is the personification of caring..she is the sweetest friendliest person u know and thats what makes u beautiful..inside and out

i am always always here to talk..u knw that day or night..bbm me call whatever..even if its just to vent im here

love u

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Kerri, please go get the tests done! I was so scared to be told that I couldn't have kids or something ever and Dr B sent us both for sooo much testing but he's brilliant and reassured us that whatever is wrong will be an easy fix once he knows what it is!

Secondly, I agree with Gina! You are effffing gorgeous and would be at any size. Seriously, you are SO beautiful.

also, because of G's post...Why are we not bbm friends?

I wouldn't read this stuff, it will only upset you and you can't do much until you know your results. Although I've never had a successful pregnancy, the one month we really tried was the one month that I didn't get pregnant. It's hard to say "don't think about it" but the less you obsess, the better.

Re: update or vent idk...

Don't ask, but I just came across this post... and I didn't even know anyone responded to it.

Thank you guys sooo much!!! You really wrote some sweet things to me.




Can you believe that after all this stuff I wrote.. this was the cycle that I finally got a BFP???!?!?!!!!