Having a lot of anxiety lately.

I'm having SUCH anxiety attacks the last week or so about when to stop working. I would LOVE to stop working now, but the problem is that our maternity policy is new and not even in writing yet, and I do not trust the woman in our billing department to pay me if I leave, and I just cannot afford to lose a month's pay.
I keep getting the run around about all of this. My boss tells me don't worry about it, they'll just pay me regular if I take off, but I know if the woman in the office hears that, she'll freak and not pay me. The way our maternity policy is SUPPOSED to work (I'm only the second teacher in 50 years of the school to be pregnant while working in the building, so I am basically a guinnea pig for this policy), is that we get paid for 4 weeks of leave, but it has to be within one month of our due date and we have to go out on disability and the school will pay the difference between what I get for disability and my regular salary. It's so freaking stupid. We do not get sick or personal days, so I can't even use those. If we are sick, we just call in and no one keeps track, we just get paid. But because i'm pregnant, if I try to call in sick everyday for the rest of the year, they will claim, well, no, you're not sick, you're pregnant, so we don't have to pay you. I am trying to work up until the end of May, which is next Wednesday, then that leaves me with ten school days left to have to worry about. And because I'm the music teacher, I don't even have classes most of those days because of finals and field trips and parties. I don't know. I don't even think any of this would even make sense to someone who works outside my school becuase nothing has a procedure here. NOTHING. And I could talk to one person, get an answer, then they do something completely different. I work for a private, non-profit school and we are run by a Board of Trustees, however, the measely billing woman in the office runs the financial aspect of the school like it's money from her own pocket, and I've been scr-wed out of money for various other things before and I can't afford to play around now. Ugh, I'm just so sick to my stomache over this.

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I'm sorry that's really crappy that they don't have a policy set in stone. I feel bad for the teachers who are pregnant - standing on your feet all day and not being able to escape to go to the bathroom. I hope you feel better and they let you leave with pay!!!

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so sorry...I swear, the only thing that gets me to work is that fact that teachers work while pregnant. Standing, talking, teaching...I don't know HOW you guys do it. Maybe if you get something writtten saying that you will be paid?