When you test, do you look forward to it or are you scared?

Its been 5mths of TTC for us and I swear, Im so scared to test. This month I tested at 10DPO and got a BFN..I was so scared to see another BFN at 11DPO that I didnt test...How do some of you ladies keep testing (some multiple times a day) and have the power to keep testing even with multiple BFN's. Does that make sense?

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i TTC'd for 18 months before my sticky BFP. after two m/c i was scared to test. for my IVF cycle i ONLY tested because DH and I couldnt figure out a way to find out together if the doctor called after the beta since we would both be at work. i def became terrified of testing and i would never test prior to 12DPO.

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I used to look forward to testing. After losing my son, I dread it. Trying to have a baby is so much different after a loss.

As much as I look forward to having an answer and moving on with my life one way or another, I also dread testing. With this being our 1st IVF cycle, I haven't decided if I will test at all. That's something I'm debating now.. maybe I'll just wait for the bloodwork.

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It's weird, but I honestly don't have many emotions at all when I test. I usually anticipate the BFN and never let myself get my hopes up so that helps curb the disappointment. I've had so many obstacles with ttc that I always assume it will be negative. Although the last month or two have been harder to deal with.

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I rarely tested because I was so tired of seeing the BFNs after 17 cycles.

I tested the cycle of our first IUI because I didn't want the news to come from a phone call while I was at work. I wanted DH to be with me too.

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I am more anxious but not in a excited way. I tell myself please let it be positive an not negative. When I see the negative it just makes me feel even worse.

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Re: When you test, do you look forward to it or are you scared?

I hate testing because knowing it is a no early on meaning that many more days before you can start trying again. I like to hold onto some hope till the last possible second. It is less miserable that way.

If I just wait for AF then I know I can start TTC 6 days later which makes me feel more in control.

Plus I temp so once it starts to dip combined with PMS symptoms it's kind of clear.

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Im not far enough into this TTC journey to have an opinion one way or another yet. We've stopped being careful in Jan, started officially trying last month with a BFN and are onto our second month of hardcore trying. Like the PP said, I just tell myself for 2 weeks that its not going to be it. I set myself up for a BFN so as it not be completely crushing. This month Im temping for the first time, so I expect to be dissapointed before I even have the chance to test.....just waiting for that temp drop.

However, I only plan on temping for 3 or so months, to get an idea of when I O. After I have an idea, Im going back to just OPKs.

Im a pessimist by nature though.

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i dont get excited or scared or anything..im just use to seeing the bfn its not exciting anymore

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I've only tested once so far and even though I knew it was going to be a BFN I was still really really nervous right before I POAS. I can't imagine how it will be once we start actively trying.

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Re: When you test, do you look forward to it or are you scared?

Last month was my first time testing since having a miscarriage. I was on progesterone for the 2 week wait so I had to test a few times to be sure I was not pregnant before stopping the medication. Last month I felt like a science project because I was using the opk, timing sex, going for bloodwork, using medication during the wait and then testing. I didn't enjoy myself at all.

I was really anxious about testing and it was not a good anxious. I was a mix of emotions since it was the first try. I felt pressure to get knocked up again and as much as I wanted the bfp I was scared to be pregnant. I was relieved and also let down when the tests were negative.

This month I still have to do the same routine, so it still feels a bit like a science project but my attitude is a little different. I feel indifferent about becoming pregnant. I feel like the pressure is off to "hurry up and get pregnant again". I want to give it my best shot so I don't kick myself for not trying but I'm actually enjoying my life this month for a change and not dwelling on everything.

I'm not sure how I'll feel when it comes time to test again. I don't think I'll be excited though

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This month I was excited but I have a feeling next month will be a different story