Yesterday I was so happy and sad at the same time

I still can't believe my baby is 1 I was saying to Hayley (not that she understood me) at this time I was getting preped for surgery and at this time you were born....then in the middle of the day it hit me, I was not allowed to hold her after she was born. She had to be rushed to NICU so fast I was barely allowed to sneek peek of her. I was brought to NICU on my way up to my room but I was on a gurney and could not get close enough to her and then that night I was brought down in a wheel chair but still could not hold her. It wasn't until the next night we were allowed to hold her.

The other thing that made me sad is that Hayley's Great Grandma (my grandmother) wasn't here to celebrate her birthday. She died 2 months ago. My grandmother loved her so much. I miss her so much

Thanks for letting me vent. Sorry this was so long.

Re: Yesterday I was so happy and sad at the same time

Re: Yesterday I was so happy and sad at the same time

Happy Birthday Hayley