Just sad (long)

I feel really depressed. I thought Dh and I really covered all the bases this month while I ovulated.Yet, I have no hope that I am preggers. I guess it's just that month after month we are disapointed, and this month probably won't be any different. It's a year after my last miscarrage.Friends have gone on the have healthy beautiful babies, and I am still in the same place.
I am finding it difficult to enjoy the things I used to love. For example Halloween, it has always been my favorite holiday, and yet this year I have no desire to partake. I walk through Target and say to myself," I better get candy, we get a ton of trick-or-treaters" and then I thin of cute kids in costumes, babies dressed up in strollers with their parents and I buy nothing.
I have never posted something like this. Maybe I'm just getting to a point of breaking down after all this time. I really don't want to come off as a brat, and I know we all have strugged. I guess I just needed to vent and feel like I am not weird or alone.

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You are not weird, you are not alone, and you are not a brat. I think just about all of us have been in this same place at least once.

This is such a difficult struggle, and I hope that you get your BFP soon. Are you seeing an RE now? Or are you on any kind of treatment? Sorry I just don't remember...

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you are not alone and you arent weird at all. Just do a search under my name and you see my million venting posts about feeling the same way. it happens a lot and we are here to help get you through rough spots, so vent away. its normal and it sucks. I wish you lots of luck and baby dust!

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I have been in this same place, watching friends get pregnant, ALWAYS avoiding the baby aisle in any store. I understand how you feel, as do the rest of us, and that's why this board is here. Not just for finding out who went to what doctor and who had what treatment. It's so that we can vent to each other and get support. We are all a shoulder for you to cry on and you can always come here when you need support.

I think everything you are saying is perfectly normal and acceptable. Your frustration makes perfect sense and I hope you see if that way.

Lots of to you and all of us on this board. I hope we all get out of here and graduate soon!!

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Posted by karacg



You are not weird, you are not alone, and you are not a brat. I think just about all of us have been in this same place at least once.

This is such a difficult struggle, and I hope that you get your BFP soon. Are you seeing an RE now? Or are you on any kind of treatment? Sorry I just don't remember...

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Well to me, what kept my spirits up would be making proactive decisions. You are going to see an RE in November - good!! Get all of your paperwork together. Make a list of questions. Maybe look into acupuncture or yoga or meditation? Studies prove they can be helpful with fertility - and more than anything it helps YOU feel like you are taking action and doing what you can.

And know that we are here for you to give and

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You are most definitely not weird/alone! DH and I have been trying a year in November and last week, I completely lost it. DH told me he'd have a dinner of tuna steak waiting when I got home. But when I got home, he'd gone to the pizza place and got pizza instead. Boy, did I sob!! For an hour. Pretty embarrassing.

A friend of mine who struggle with infertility for two years before getting pg thru IVF told me that some days you just have to take care of you - whatever that means: taking a nap, getting a facial, not doing housework, going shopping. It lets you re-group and then get back to dealing with IF.

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You are not alone!!!

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again, you are sooo not alone. I think Helen (Red AKA newcomer) had a very similar post last week. You are in the right place though. No one can understand the way we do.

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It is normal to feel the way you do. Feel Better!

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It is totally normal what you are feeling. I have been feeling the same way a lot lately. I wish I knew what to say to make it go away. Just try and stay positive!
Good Luck!!

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You are NOT alone....

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I think all of us on this board have felt similar emotions so please do not feel as if you are weird. I am in the middle of one of these myself. It is a struggle and thankfully there are some very strong and supportive women on this board who understand and know exactly what you are feeling

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Thanks everyone for the well wishes and support. I know I can always count on you girls to give me a kick in the a$$! Seriously though, all of you make the difference between being hopeless and hopeful.

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Posted by Jillybean28

Thanks everyone for the well wishes and support. I know I can always count on you girls to give me a kick in the a$$! Seriously though, all of you make the difference between being hopeless and hopeful.

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so sorry you are hurting.

infertility hurts bad, don't feel weird for giving in to your feelings-that's way better than keeping them bottled up.

and if you need to skip halloween, that's ok! there will be another one next year!!

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Hi Jill
Sorry you are hurting right now...
I think all of us can relate. I've been in a funk myself! I really haven't been on the boards because of it.
Sending you, and everyone, and positive vibes!

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I think we can all relate, as the posts show. You have to find your own way to deal with it. As someone else said, if you don't want to do Halloween, don't. For myself, I couldn't walk through another babies r us, so I started buying things onlines for showers or baby gifts. It's very personal and you shouldn't feel like a brat. You are going through an extremely difficult period of your life. Many to you and lots of

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Posted by Jillybean28

Posted by karacg



You are not weird, you are not alone, and you are not a brat. I think just about all of us have been in this same place at least once.

This is such a difficult struggle, and I hope that you get your BFP soon. Are you seeing an RE now? Or are you on any kind of treatment? Sorry I just don't remember...

I have an issue with keeping a pregnancy (3 miscarriages) I am on metformin,clomid, 2 different prenatal vit. and progesterone.Because of all the meds, my ovulation is off. I see a gyno who "specializes with infertility" I am in the processs of switching insurance and he is refering me to an RE. (Nov.)

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Believe me...you're not weird and you're definitely not alone...I just want to offer you many many