I'm going into a depression..

I just really all of a sudden today just want to cry. It's probably PMS but I can't take it anymore. I want to give up and come to the realism that having a baby just isn't for me. I have also gained weight that I can't fit into last years fat clothes. My DH just says I'm fine yeah right!

I'm starting to eat b/c of the stress and therefore gaining weight. I really want a glass or many glasses of wine tonight but don't want to at the same time b/c it's empty calories and need to start taking them off!

Thanks for letting me vent.

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I responded to you on LIWs but I want to give you some

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Posted by kelly4

I just really all of a sudden today just want to cry. It's probably PMS but I can't take it anymore. I want to give up and come to the realism that having a baby just isn't for me. I have also gained weight that I can't fit into last years fat clothes. My DH just says I'm fine yeah right!

I'm starting to eat b/c of the stress and therefore gaining weight. I really want a glass or many glasses of wine tonight but don't want to at the same time b/c it's empty calories and need to start taking them off!

Thanks for letting me vent.

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I am sorry it's so hard for you. Don't lose hope!

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OH kelly...Im right there with you..I bet a lot of us are. I hope it helps to know you are NOT alone in feeling that way, and also we are all hear to listen, offer advice etc, so VENT away!

Many of us have gained weight, and I STILL AM EATING like a cow, yet complaining all my clothes dont fit.

TTC is such a hard thing when it doesnt happen like you expected. Its ok to feel this way.

Try to do anything that makes you feel good..even if you only feel good for ten minutes, its better then nothing.

I dont have much advice, because I'm feeling similair...BUT, I think we can all get each through this...HOLD your head up...It will get better I swear!!!

Have a great weekend!!

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All I can do is send you . This is so difficult for those of us who don't get PG the first couple of months.

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I sooo feel for you, sweetie... I could've written your post, I feel so much of what you are feeling

I feel that each month that passes by, I get a teeny bit sadder and down... and not knowing how long its going to take and worrying and thinking about this constantly doens't help much, either

As the others said, try to do something special for YOU and do what it takes to feel better. Maybe just taking a month off from TTC would help to, I know it seems like a silly thing to do but it might give you renewed hope to take little break and come back feeling positive again

We're all in this together and we're definitely all here for you!

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I know exactly how you are feeling....this is month 9 for us already and I never expected it take this long.....I can only reassure myself that it will happen when the time is right.

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Lora,

I know it is so hard. I'm sorry you're feeling so down right now. My life is pretty much mirroring yours with the depression...the fatness...no clothes fit...moody... It's so so disappointing month after month.

People told me to take a break from TTC and I didn't want to but now that my doctor is running tests on me next cycle, I feel like this cycle I can relax a little bit and I don't have to stress out because if it doesn't happen, at least I will start testing and hopefully find out why next cycle. I feel SO much better - I mean yeah I was stressing about Oing but that was more so that I could know approx. When AF would be here and when I could start testing.

I know you've been trying for about the same about of time I have been to get PG, have you considered talking to you dr. about it? Even if you have to fib a little to get testing done (telling your dr. you've been TTC longer than you have)?

All I know is that the stress and torment we all put ourselves through isn't good for anyone...not for us, our DH, our friends and family and most of all not for a little baby.

I hope that you start feeling better soon. Maybe you should think about just taking one month off...and concentrate on you and losing weight and what ever you want to do. I've been doing that too and it's helping. Too bad you're not still in Northport, we could walk together (I like to walk for exercise).

Feel better....let me know if I can do anything...and just know that we are not the first or the last to have to be patient when TTC..and our time will come.

kathy

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I'm so sorry you are feeling sad

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I know exactly what you mean- DH and I started on easter before our wedding to get the BFN and let down I wanted to cry, I am 34 and so worried it will take forever, I want to so bad go out and get a test but dont want to waste the 17 dollars for another depressing moment, and when Im sad I eat too, just last night my dad said - " did you put some weight back on?" I was like yup- Im eating crap everyday b/c of depression. I pray we all get some good news soon. Baby dust to all