I feel so un grounded....

I know, selfish and inconsiderate of me to ask for baby dust , I KNOW THIS, but Im dying here...lol... I'm 11dpo today...BFN this am ( with internet cheapie...all I have left as far as hpts go...lol) and I swear I was BEGGING the stick this morning to please give me some color, when I realized Im on dangerous ground.

I dont know why the "need" comes in waves. The last 3-4 months I was upset when AF came, but I also felt like OK, lets move on, it WILL happen.

This month Im obsessed again, and Im so afraid of falling too hard when she comes.

How do you keep yourself in reality and not get so let down? It seems sooo much easier said then done.

Thanks!

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You are soooo not selfish I was in your shoes compeletly last week. This month I am a little better and pretty much assuming I am not PG. But I know there still is a little voice in the back of my head saying that I probably am PG this month since I am assuming I am not. I know.... its INSANE!!!!!!!

I do wish you tons of baby dust and I hope this is your month. But here is the reality you asked for, the chances with IUI are still very low (I think somehting like 20%), so statistically you have a 1 in 5 chance and this is your 3rd cycle if I am correct. The other thing is it will happen, this is a process and with any process there are ups and downs that will eventually come to an end. I hope your end comes soon with a BFP, but hang in there.

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Totally not selfish

Pauline said it best - it will happen for us, we just don't know when

I'm wishing you all the best and much baby dust for a BFP

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I wish you lots of baby dust.

Hang in there. Your BFP will come.

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Lots of Baby Dust coming your way!!! I hope this is your month!!

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You are not being selfish at all. Some months are harder then others and I have no idea why. I really wish there was something I could say that would make all this easier, but words just don't do it some times. I'm sending you TONS of baby dust!

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You are definitely not selfish or inconsiderate!!! I am sending you tons of babydust.

Just have faith that it will happen. I like this saying....."I never said it would be easy, I said it would be worth it"

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No way are you acting selfish!!!!!
I know Im in your shoes. I had 2 years of this rollercoaster, and now back on the ride.
Some months seem worse than others.
Keep your head up

Big Dreams do make little miracles

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Donna.. you are the furthest thing from selfish in my mind... in fact, you are NOTHING of the sort.

You want to be PG and you want to experience being a Mom .. and there is no fault in that... in fact its one of the best things (and UNSELFISH things) a person can wish for!

I know that some months just seem harder than others.. not sure why that is, I think it just comes in waves and that the roller coaster that is IF/TTC is such a tough one to ride out sometimes ...

We talk all the time so you already know that I keep you in my thoughts and prayers daily.. but I'm sending you more support and positive vibes right here anyhow

{{{{{{{{{BABY DUST}}}}}}} I really pray this month that your dreams come true

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you are not being selfish. Going through infertility is not easy, but you do it because one day you will get the good news. The more positive energy you have - it could only help. I send you tons of baby dust.

take care

rosanna

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Donna, We have all been in your shoes and had those same feelings from month to month. you are in no way being selfish! Sending you tons of baby dust!

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There is no way you are being selfish. You are just going through what we have all gone through at some point or another. It has taken every bit of my being to not test early every month and wait until 14dpo before testing. I hope this is your month and am sending you lot's of baby dust.

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I cant add anythign better than what has already been said by the other ladies, but I wanted to make sure to throw some extra 's your way.

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Donna - you are in no way selfish. You are like the rest of us trying so hard. You are a woman waiting for the day to see that sign of a BFP. You are human honey

You are one of my biggest supporters here and I cannot tell you how much it means to me to have you keeping me in a positive frame of mind. I hope my emails somehow do the same for you.

My fingers and toes are still crossed for you!!

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I just wanted to thank you all for your kind words which DID make me feel a lot better.

I appreciate you all always allowing me to vent, and feel like people out there understand.

Your all amazing women!

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any updates?

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Thank you Pauline, Its nice to have people think of you, especially when your in the midst of the crazy part of the 2WW yourself......

Its been a rough rough month for me, been kinda not posting about it.....

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Donna...I am so sorry it has been a bad month for you. These can be some of the most trying times of our lives. I have never experienced the emotional roller coaster that I've been on for the last year.
There are times when I think about giving up, but I know that once I do I will be really done, so I keep saying one more month.....
My fingers are crossed for you.

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Thank you Gerty
My temp dropped below the CL this am, so AF should be here today...

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Oh no. Donna I am sooo sorry, I know all too well how you must be feeling right now. This is a really terrible roller coaster and these times SSUCK!!! Hang in there, something good will come your way. If there is anything I can do , dont hesitate to FM me.