not having a good day today

i am driving myself absolutely insane I hate the fear of the unknown that something is going to be wrong with me and I cant know now I keep researching on the internet and coming up with so many scenarios of what can be wrong and I know most stuff is treatable but I fear that insurance cant cover everything and that I we will not have the money to be able to pay to have a baby I just want to cry all day but have to fight it since I am at work and I dont want anyone to see me.. just neeed to vent out

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I'm sorry, I did the same thing to myself after my 2nd miscarriage. I drove myself crazy on the internet.


I have those days too of "it's not gotten happen."


Hang in there.
I'm sure you are fine and it will happen.

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i think that is a common feeling that we go through..
its so hard and i know it breaks our hearts to just wonder what is going on with our bodies now, and in the future..

i have been feeling this way ever since the loss.. and now that its taking me a while to conceive, i constantly review it in my head..

BUT, with all that said.. we have to just be strong and positive about it.. knowing that MC and losses are so common .. unfortunately.. and MANY people go through it and have a successful pregnancy afterwards..

this is what gets me through.. just thinking positive and know it WILL happen.. whether with medical assistance or natural.. it will happen!!

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I know just what you mean. I feel the same fear. I know that most things are treatable, but I am fearful of going deeply into debt or eating away at our savings trying to sort this all out.

I am just trying to stay positive at this point and believe that it will all work out- life has a way of doing that.....

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