Almost 4 mts since my Gma died...

Ad I still can't think about her without crying.

I feel like a piece of myself is missing.

I know everyone loves their grandma, but she was more than just my nice grandma.

She was the only one who ever advocated for me. She watched out for me when I was younger. I grew up with an abusive mother, so she was the only one who really nurtured me and cared for me.

She was a tough cookie, but I knew she always had my best interest in mind. She would always defend me against my stepmother, who also has mental issues and controls my dad, who rarely stands up for me....

Now, I feel I'm alone. I dream about my grandma almost every night - and its always the same thing - I see her, and think "Oh, she's alive again! Now we can spend more time together!"

I keep thinking her last words to me were "Just be happy" and I'm not. I'm miserable.

Re: Almost 4 mts since my Gma died...

Re: Almost 4 mts since my Gma died...

I don't have any words of wisdom unfortunately - I feel the same way about my father. I know he would want me to be happy but I'm finding that, with each day that passes, it's more and more of a struggle for me, and my dreams are overtaking me at times. Just know you aren't alone

Re: Almost 4 mts since my Gma died...