anxiety making me sick

I have been pregnant a total of 4 times with one live birth.
The pregnancy for the live birth was disctinctly different than the others from the begiing. Even after having 2 mc, I knew it was for real b/c my body was doing distinct things that were different than the other times. No morning sickness, but distinct differences.
I had a chemical 2 months ago. This week we BD'd when I was O'ing.

I am now 3 days late for my AF which is unusual for me. My body is doing the "unusual' things it did when I had all the miscarriages. I now that if I am pregnant, its not real....its just not I'm avoiding testing or any of that sh!t until I'm at least 2 weeks late b/c I can't deal with the ups and downs and anxiety of test results, etc. I just can't. Meanwhile this is eating me up inside. I don't want to do this anymore.

Re: anxiety making me sick

I am so sorry for your losses I know how you feel to a certain extinct. I have two kids but have had two miscarriages in the past 15 months and am currently in a "holding pattern". I thought I was pregnant...I got a BFP but at my first scan there was no embryo just a sac so now I am waiting for another week for them to do another sono. Like you I went into the appointment convinced there was something wrong...the OB said its because I am bracing for myself in case there is bad news and I am just trying to protect myself...sounds like you are doing the same.

I will be sending lots and lots of good vibes to you and pray for you as you wait for your happy outcome

anxiety making me sick

I know how you feel. I have had 5 pregnancies and I have 2 children. It can be tough holding on to the positive feelings when you know how it "could" turn out. Try try try to stay positive! The best thing you can do is keep a open mind and think good thoughts. I say take the test. Either way you will be thinking about it. At least if you test you will know one way or another if it is even a possibility. Good luck. I will be thinking about you!