the good and the bad

So I've been trying to lose at least 12 pounds in 5 months. It is truly for myself but the motivation was to look hot at an upcoming wedding.

In the first 3 months, I lost 6.5 lbs. I now have 5.5 more to lose in 2 months.

However, when I start to finally see progress I feel like I self-sabotage myself by binge eating again or not working out. I'm starting to finally get excited about my progress and be proud of myself but I also am starting to feel everything slipping away. This isn't a diet. I want it to be a lifestyle. However, I am at one of the lowest points in my life right now and the anxiety is just killing me.

Just wanted to throw this all out there.

the good and the bad

I don't think you're alone. I think you speak of the problem many have.
You should be happy of your accomplishments. I find if I slip a bit, it's never good. It ends up as a downward spiral. I simply can't "give in a bit" more than just a little, otherwise.. Disaster.

I know this about myself. It's almost like being an addict, and I mean that as less dramatic as possible.

But I don't think you're alone. :)

Re: the good and the bad

I know exactly how you feel as soon as I see progress I look at it like oh I can cheat a little but really I can't I have to stick with it and make it a lifestyle change. I lost weight for a wedding and it all came back. Trying again now
Good luck