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well it's been 2 weeks since i got my BFN.

i just wanted to apologize for dropping off the board, but i was feeling pretty down and i didn't want to talk or think about anything related to infertility.

but then i realized, that's pretty stupid since ALL i think about is infertility so i might as well be back here with my girls, thinking and talking about it with people that care and understand!!

so i am going to try to catch up on the board and reply to most of your posts, but for now i will say massive, massive baby dust and good wishes to all!

i realized that i can't give up hope and that this is just one more waiting period just like all the other waiting i've been doing throughout this whole TTC period. i am going to transfer 2 of our frozen embryos next month, so hopefully round 2 will be the one!

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Lisa, I am right there with you! Found out I was pregnant on a Monday 7/31/06 and by that Thurs found out my BETA was decreasing so the Embryos were rejecting. Its an emotional rollercoaster and it hurts! I am trying to stay strong too!

Hopefully one day....we'll both get what we want - a baby!

Good Luck next month!

I am taking a few months off to get my head back together and feel normal again (no hormones).

babydust:

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hey lisa

i read your other posts and i was sooo devastated for you. it must have been even harder for you to find out it worked and then suddenly it didn't. i am so sorry for your loss.

the pain is so enormous sometimes and i'm surprised at times when my pain subsides (never goes away fully) and i feel more hopeful. i hope your time off renews your hope too.

here's to "the lisas" getting pregnant soon!! of course, to all the other women on this board too!!

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Yes.....to the Three Lisa's (LisaW too) and of course to everyone else!!!!!

Lots of baby dust to e1 ttc!

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While I am sorry to see you back, I hope it is not for long! I hope your next transfer is it for you!

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PLEASE dont apologize for taking a break. I take mini breaks all the time and then come back on here complaining away and everyone is always here and they always understand.

Im so sorry it hit you so hard and I have no words to make you feel better.

It truly is a rollarcoaster because you can feel "OK" one minute and hit bottom the next.

All we can do is move foward and try not to dwell on what could have been.

We are all here if you need to vent.