Dreams

I lost a friend last year. He was actually an ex-lover and amazing person. He changed my life.

We lost touch bc after an on again/off again intense live affair, it turned ugly.

I met my husband, got married, started my life as a wife and mom.

He died suddenly last year. I was terribly shaken. His funeral was private and I never paid my respects.

I dream about him. Sometimes it's sexual, as that was a large part of our relationship.

Lady night I dreamt that I was at hid house and he had just died. I was there, but so were all if these other women. They "we" all wanted to be the bereaved--like the wife or main woman.

I got lost in the crowd.

I've been so sad all day.

Please don't quote. I may take down. I just can't share with my husband (obviously) and I'm feeling the loss tremendously today.

Re: Dreams

Forgive the autocorrect errors. I will edit later. It was a love affair-- not a live affair.

Re: Dreams

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I wouldn't worry or feel guilty about the dreams. He is on your mind a lot and it's not surprising you would recall things/ feelings from your relationship.

Hope you are feeling better today