Re: How has the death of your mother changed you?

Geez....some of these posts are bringing tears to my eyes. While I certainly don't want anyone to be in this boat, I'm glad we have each other.
As for me, since the death of my mom....

-- I fear that I will die when I'm 50 of breast cancer, like her. My husband will talk about when we're older and I'll say things like, "yeah, but I probably won't be alive to see it."

-- I can't stand it when I hear people complaining about their mothers.

-- I get angry and feel bad for myself. This shouldn't have happened to me. I didn't deserve this (none of us did.)
Bad things always happen to good people.

-- I am numbed by the death of others. My grandmother, grandfather and husband's grandma have all died since my mom. I didn't shed a single tear. I totally zoned out.

-- I am jealous when I see other girls with their moms. I remember when I was registering at Fortunoff I saw all these brides-to-be walking around with scan guns and their moms.

-- I am stronger, I think. (My husband says I am.)

-- I matured faster. I was 20 when she passed.

Message edited 12/8/2006 1:16:39 PM.

Re: How has the death of your mother changed you?

after losing my mom to cancer (it will b 2 years this coming january 3rd) and losing her a month before my 16th birthday, and especially losing her during the times in my life i need her most has been very hard. I've also been terrified that what if that happens to me? The thought scares me alot. Now, being 17 and a soon to be mother of a little girl, im upset that she cant be here for me and i really appreciate the things she did for me. But what is exciting, in a weird way, is that im due in january..the first week actually so im hoping i have my little girl on January 3rd. lol mayb im just weird or something but i think that would be kind of neat.

Re: How has the death of your mother changed you?