Re: very long, I apologize

Many hugs to you. I can somewhat relate. Some days I just feel so hopeless, other days I am so angry and some days I just feel I rather chance getting sick than live like this much longer. I just feel like the stress is too great and it's killing me. I am tired of hearing people just say nothing is worse than being dead because it doesn't feel like that most days. I am petrified of what's to come in the economy more than anything else, even though I think the small risk of death does exist.

very long, I apologize

This post is heartbreaking to read, since it is the very thing I was afraid for since the beginning. People in situations of anxiety, depression, special needs, physical and mental abuse- you name it. I hope that this post was a little relief for you. It feels so good sometimes to let it all out. With 5 kids and 5 personalities, it can't be easy.
This is real, and the struggle is real. But rest assured, things will return to a "new normal". Jobs will return, and life will resume. We just have o expect it to look slightly different. And for me, expecting that fact makes it a bit easier. I continually tell myself, "you've done more with less". You can do this.

Re: very long, I apologize

You know what? You aren't giving yourself enough credit. That was so brave to share that. You seem very in tune to your feelings and those of your kids and that's a gift. You are a FT working mom of 5 kids! That's so overwhelming. I give you so much kudos. Truly, I do.

I hope things get better for you. Do whatever you have to do to help yourself and your family and don't worry about what anyone else thinks. You are so right with everything you said about being less judgmental.