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OhEmGee
LIF Infant
Member since 12/11 76 total posts
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Devastated and heartbroken
I don't know where to post this but I just had a miscarriage @10 weeks. It all happened so fast. Everything was fine and then today I had a tiny bit of bleeding. Then a few hours later I passed the fetus and saw it. It was my baby on a maxi pad with eyes, head, everything!  That image is burned into my head. I am so upset and I feel like I will never be the same or get over it. Now I am bleeding and cramping like crazy.
I got pregnant the first time with DS and again this time was on the first try. I counted my blessings every single night!! I knew how lucky that was. Just last night I thanked god for giving me two miracles!! I was so grateful for this and so happy. Why does this happen?!?! How am I supposed to go on with life? My sister and I were due a month apart. 
I am sorry to anyone who has/had it worse. Right now it just feels like the end of the world. As soon as I got my BFP I envisioned my whole life ahead of me and it included that baby which is now in a plastic bag so my OB can test it.
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Posted 1/29/12 7:49 PM  |
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BabyGreene
LIF Infant
Member since 10/09 320 total posts
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Alex
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
Omg I'm crying reading this... Again I'm so sorry. The ladies on this board are so supportive
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| Posted 1/29/12 7:53 PM |
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AngnShaun
Sisters
Member since 1/10 21015 total posts
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Ang
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
I am so sorry. I also m/c'd naturally at 9 weeks. I was able to also see the baby, even then its almost hard to believe it actually happened. 
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| Posted 1/29/12 8:25 PM |
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jacksmom09
LIF Adolescent
Member since 6/10 687 total posts
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
I am really sorry Many hugs for you!!! We are here if you need anything!
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| Posted 1/29/12 8:54 PM |
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bettybcafe
Big brother in the making
Member since 7/07 8611 total posts
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
You are truly a strong person...I miscarried at 6-7 wks and saw the sac..but didnt see all the details like you did. I dont know what I would have done....I truly dont even know what to say except that I am sooo deeply sorry
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| Posted 1/29/12 8:54 PM |
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
My heart cries for you. Please remember that you do have a wonderful LO to go on for.
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| Posted 1/29/12 8:58 PM |
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Frenchy49
LIF Adolescent
Member since 12/10 707 total posts
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
I'm so truly sorry
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| Posted 1/29/12 9:40 PM |
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caslee11
LIF Infant
Member since 9/11 128 total posts
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
I am so for your loss. I lost mine early and had a D&C and that was hard enough. I am so sorry what you had to go through.
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| Posted 1/29/12 10:04 PM |
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YourMama
LIF Adult
Member since 4/11 913 total posts
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YourMama
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
I'm so sorry you went through that
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| Posted 1/29/12 10:13 PM |
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Melissa1013
My sweet boy
Member since 1/08 1933 total posts
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Melissa
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
I am so sorry for your loss. Be gentle with yourself. Allow yourself to grieve...and remember there's no right or wrong way.
Please FM if you need anything. We're all here to support you.
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| Posted 1/29/12 10:38 PM |
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Chai77
Brighter days ahead
Member since 4/07 7364 total posts
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
I am so incredibly sorry for your loss and the devastating experience you went through. I'm wishing you both physical and emotional healing.
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| Posted 1/29/12 10:55 PM |
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StaceyWill
It's a girl!!!
Member since 6/10 21539 total posts
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Stacey
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
I miscarried in March at almost 11 weeks but did not see anything like you did. My heart absolutely breaks for you and I’m so sorry!!!
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| Posted 1/30/12 8:08 AM |
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skinny
3 boys and a princess!
Member since 11/08 8178 total posts
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Momma
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
Oh no! I am so sorry for your loss.
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| Posted 1/30/12 9:45 AM |
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OhEmGee
LIF Infant
Member since 12/11 76 total posts
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
Thanks everyone. Yesterday was the hardest day of my life. I just want to run out of my house and never stop running until I can escape this reality.
I feel so bad for my DS, I have been crying so much and he doesn't understand why Mommy is so sad. I am trying to be strong for him but this is just so incredibly hard. I can't get that image out of my head. I just wish this happened weeks ago, I think I might have been able to handle it better. I was just getting comfortable- I bought DS a big brother shirt.
I just don't know what to do with myself right now. I keep pacing around because if I sit still I have to think about it. I wish I could fast forward a few weeks and feel better. Right now it feels like I will never be happy again. My 12 week appointment was right before valentines day and my birthday. I was going to tell everyone then. Now those days are going to be reminders of what I don't have.
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| Posted 1/30/12 10:42 AM |
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Megs4
LIF Adult
Member since 11/08 1619 total posts
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Megan
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
I am so, so sorry for your loss and what you experienced.
The only advice I can offer is that it takes time... and don't be afraid to talk to people about it (on here and in real life). That is what helped me.
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| Posted 1/30/12 11:15 AM |
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
I am so sorry for your loss!
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| Posted 1/30/12 11:49 AM |
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HopeBaby12
LIF Infant
Member since 10/11 111 total posts
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
I am so sorry for your loss. The only advice I can give is to let it all out. Its okay to feel the way you do. I have gone through 2 mc and I hate when everyone asks whats wrong. Obviously Im griveing and need to. If you need anything, feel free to FM me.
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| Posted 1/30/12 7:58 PM |
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Jax430
Hi!
Member since 5/05 18919 total posts
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Jackie
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
I am so sorry for your loss.
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| Posted 1/30/12 10:06 PM |
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Bearcat
Love my little girls!!! <3
Member since 6/10 10818 total posts
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
i am so incredibly sorry...
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| Posted 1/31/12 7:31 AM |
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beachgirl
LIF Adult
Member since 7/05 7967 total posts
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sara
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
I am so sorry for your loss and those words dont seem enough sometimes Its truly a gut wrenching experience and when I had my M/C I honestly didn't know how I would be happy again or even live a normal life. That was last may and while it seriously took a long time for me I think once I passed my EDD in december something changed and I seemed to accept it. I know the timing is different for everyone. It really did tear me apart and I have two other kids at home so it was hard to hide it from them as they didn't know I was pregnant.
I know you will be okay, give yourself as much time as you need, stay busy if that works for you and allow yourself to grieve your loss
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| Posted 1/31/12 1:47 PM |
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MrsKelly
just hangin' around...
Member since 11/06 6305 total posts
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Krista
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
Im beyond sorry you had to endure that. We can all empathize and are here for u 100%. Take one day at a time, its all you can do. Time will help the pain seem not as overwhelming.
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| Posted 1/31/12 9:29 PM |
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EnV-McC
LIF Adolescent
Member since 8/10 885 total posts
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
I so sorry. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. 
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| Posted 2/1/12 12:37 AM |
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RGEC47
Feeling blessed!
Member since 11/09 3039 total posts
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Rosa
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Re: Devastated and heartbroken
I am so sorry. I cannot even begin to imagine what you are going through. All I can say, is to just take it a day at a time, and in time you will start to feel whole again.
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