feeling down **UPDATE**

Today I'm about a month along and woke up to the sight of blood I called my doctor and they just had me come in for a blood test. I have to go back on Wednesday for a follow-up. They said my numbers were really low, but that they'll know more when they get my next blood test to see if it goes up or down. I wish they would have just done an examination, but oh well.

It's definitely feeling like my period though. I have PMS cramps and even tho it's not crazy heavy bleeding, it's certainly more than just spotting. And recently it turned into clots. So I'm pretty sure this won't be good news.

I was told to go on bedrest for 48 hours.

I just feel very sad right now with all of this and very confused. I keep blaming myself wondering what I could have done wrong, even though I know that I shouldn't blame myself. We were just soooo happy about this pregnancy, it's like a stab to the heart.

Any advice would certainly be welcome



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Message edited 9/16/2009 6:46:45 PM.

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Aww hun I'm so sorry! I hate to see another person joining us, but want to let you know that this is a great bunch of girls who can help you along the way. I don't know what I would have done without this board.

What you experienced sounds exactly like what I experienced, and I'm just so sorry you had to experience it too.

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SO sorry you are going through this. Just know that no matter what happens DO NOT blame yourself. These things are unfortunately out of our control! And we are all here for you

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Posted by mrspalomino148

Aww hun I'm so sorry! I hate to see another person joining us, but want to let you know that this is a great bunch of girls who can help you along the way. I don't know what I would have done without this board.

What you experienced sounds exactly like what I experienced, and I'm just so sorry you had to experience it too.

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You really can't know until you see the second set of numbers.

I don't have any advice, but I can at least share my story.--

I had a m/c last May. I was probably around 6-1/2 wks when I started bleeding. It started with brown spotting on a Thursday and progressed to pink spotting to passing red clots. I called my Dr's offc that Monday, came in for a sono and all they saw was a sack. (I really was just about 7 wks then so they should have seen the heart beat.)

They then tested my beta-HCG that night and 24 hours later. The numbers were dropping.

Since I was already bleeding, my Dr. did not recommend a D & C. She said to let nature take it's course at that point.

I stopped bleeding on the following Monday, had a sono that Tuesday and they only saw blood and debree.

They followed my beta-HCG back down to 0. I got there about the end of June.

I am sorry you are going through this It was Mother's Day weekend when this was happening for me and I spent the whole weekend lying around and crying. So I understand how sad and stressful that it is. Especially when you don't know what's going on with your body.

And PLEASE DON'T BLAME YOURSELF! There was nothing that you should or should not have done.

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I am sorry to hear.


You don't know what will happen till you see the second set of numbers. Try to stay positive. I know there are some women that do spot and bleed during 1rst Trimester and go on to have healthy pregnancies.


I hope everything will work out. PLease keep us updated. There are some amazing women on this board who can offer great support and answers to all your questions. We are all hear for you

Please do not blame yourself. All of this is out of our control. I def understand how you feel with the rollercoaster of emtions.


I have bumped the INTRO THREAD for you to read. This will give you some history and personal experiences of some of us girls.

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Posted by Ever-After

Posted by mrspalomino148

Aww hun I'm so sorry! I hate to see another person joining us, but want to let you know that this is a great bunch of girls who can help you along the way. I don't know what I would have done without this board.

What you experienced sounds exactly like what I experienced, and I'm just so sorry you had to experience it too.

Thank you for your kind words. I just feel very lost right now. Thank God for DH who has been so wonderful throughout this entire awful day. I never would have seen this coming tho - i felt absolutely FINE until this morning.

As for your experience - could you give me some insight as to what I can maybe expect? How far along were you, and how long did it take to pass?

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thank you everybody for these very helpful and kind words

I have been such a mess all day long. I'm trying to just relax, but it's so hard.

Thank you also for bumping that intro thread. I'm going to read through it now, I'm sure it'll be helpful.

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I am so sorry you're going through this.

I agree with what the other ladies have said...you won't know for sure until you get that second number. And definitely don't blame yourself!! This is out of our control.

That being said, I will share my experience...when I m/c I was about 6.5 weeks. I had been experiencing slight spotting and cramping for a few days, which turned into red bleeding. I went to the doctor...they did bloodwork and a sono. The sono only showed a sac, and repeated bloodwork showed decreasing numbers. I bled for about a week (although only 3 days were heavy). I went back for bloodwork once a week until it was back to 0. That took about 3-3.5 weeks.

Keep us updated

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I am so sad to read this. I have seen your posts on threads & saw how happy you were about PG. Us girls are a great support to each other & are here for you.
My story is diff. than your situation & the other girls, which I'm sure you'll see on the thread.
I know how tough this all is right now, don't count yourself out until you get your test results & let's hope for the best. God forbid...time heals all...I promise you that.

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aww i'm so sorry!
You really can't be sure of anything with getting the second set of numbers, so try and stay as positive as you can.
Has the bleeding slowed or stopped at all? Some women may experience bleeding throughout the pregnancy so don't think about the worst right now.
I wish I could give you a big hug!
DO NOT BLAME YOURSELF! There is nothing that you could have done differently or nothing that you did wrong.

Hang in there!

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Im very sorry to hear this

I think everyone else pretty much said it all. First and for foremost, DO NOT blame yourself. You just cant. I know its hard but if you start now, you will never stop, trust me. These things happen quite often unfortunately

Try to rest and relax and lets all hope for the best. I pray that you dont m/c but whatever happens, we are here. This really is a great board. I hardly ever posted before and I certainly never thought Id ever open up about the most heart wrenching experience of my life but I have found a lot of comfort and a lot of great friends on this board

Hang in there!! an d keep us posted

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I am so very sorry I would try and just relax right now until you get the second numbers. I know how hard it is this whole thing is a waiting game. Do NOT blame yourself, i've done it and it provides no comfort whatsoever.

I mc almost a month ago now. I had been having a little spotting but didn't pay to much mind to it. Then the day after we told DH's parents I started to cramp and it went down hill from there. I've been bleeding for about 4 weeks now but i think im the exception.

If you need anything please know that everyone on this board is so kind and understanding.

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Oh no - I am so sorry - I know how excited you were about this pregnancy. But like the other ladies have said, you don't know anything for sure yet - try to stay positive.

You have a great support system here on this board, we've all been there.

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I am so sorry to hear what you are going through. The girls above said it all, but i wanted to comment and giv eyou

It is a horrible thing and no matter what anyone tells you you will be feeling so many things and that is all normal...but please DONT BLAME YOURSELF. Unfortunately everyone goes through something different but here is my story. I blogged about it and found it really helped me.

Our Loss

Our Loss: What I learned

I hope some of this helps. The girls on this board are amazing! It's a safe place here

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I'm so sorry this is happening! Please don't blame yourself. You did nothing wrong and could not have prevented it. Unfortunately we can't control what our bodies do. I think all of us on this board know that feeling of being lost, confused, sad and mad. Please feel free to talk about it, through fm or on the board. My thoughts are with you

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ladies, I am truly touched by all of the responses I've gotten on here. You are some incredible, strong women and i have so much respect for each and every one of you. THANK YOU so much for being here for me in this time when I feel so alone. I woke up so sad this morning, suddenly remembering all that I may have lost and it quite literally feels like there is a hole in my heart that only time will heal.

The bleeding continues today. I don't feel as much cramps as i did before, but there's still clots in it. I did something stupid and took a HPT to check and it came up negative, so that was definitely painful. I'm not sure if that result is accurate enough to be the end for me, but I'm definitely feeling a strong loss of hope.

I'm hanging in there though and praying for the best. Whatever happens, me & dh will get thru it. I just want this all to end. I want to get the end results now and for this bleeding to STOP. i want to go back to normal life and start trying again as soon as it's safe to do so. This whole thing right now is just too hard.

Thank you again for being here for me. I don't know any of you - but i love you just the same

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i am so sorry you are going through this..

nothing is your fault, so please get that out of your head..
all the girls on here are so wonderful and supportive... its definitely the best place to be when you are feeling down.

i had a chemical too and its such a tease.. you get that bfp and then its all taken away from you.
i am sure the bleeding will stop soon, and you wont have to be constantly reminded of what is happening to you.
once you start trying again , things will get better, i promise!! you will get there and be a mommy!

i am a success story! after having a loss at 16 weeks ,and then another (chemical ) i was so down, and never thought it would happen..
but it did! and i am pregnant! we all will get there!! hang in there!!

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Posted by MetsGirl07

i am so sorry you are going through this..

nothing is your fault, so please get that out of your head..
all the girls on here are so wonderful and supportive... its definitely the best place to be when you are feeling down.

i had a chemical too and its such a tease.. you get that bfp and then its all taken away from you.
i am sure the bleeding will stop soon, and you wont have to be constantly reminded of what is happening to you.
once you start trying again , things will get better, i promise!! you will get there and be a mommy!

i am a success story! after having a loss at 16 weeks ,and then another (chemical ) i was so down, and never thought it would happen..
but it did! and i am pregnant! we all will get there!! hang in there!!

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Posted by MetsGirl07

i am so sorry you are going through this..

nothing is your fault, so please get that out of your head..
all the girls on here are so wonderful and supportive... its definitely the best place to be when you are feeling down.

i had a chemical too and its such a tease.. you get that bfp and then its all taken away from you.
i am sure the bleeding will stop soon, and you wont have to be constantly reminded of what is happening to you.
once you start trying again , things will get better, i promise!! you will get there and be a mommy!

i am a success story! after having a loss at 16 weeks ,and then another (chemical ) i was so down, and never thought it would happen..
but it did! and i am pregnant! we all will get there!! hang in there!!

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I'm so sorry. This is very similar to what I went through in June at about 5.5 weeks. It is such an awful feeling, but wait until you get that second number so that you know what is really going on. One thing I've learned on here is that everyone woman's body is different, so symptoms in one person may mean something different in another.

Hang in there....you have lots of support here.

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I am completly crashing and I have no idea how you must feel, but I was following you on TTC because you always responded to my posts with such good advice and concern...so this makes me so sad for you...please if you need to talk don't hesitate to FM... I am so sorry

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Posted by Firebaby

I am completly crashing and I have no idea how you must feel, but I was following you on TTC because you always responded to my posts with such good advice and concern...so this makes me so sad for you...please if you need to talk don't hesitate to FM... I am so sorry

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Posted by Ever-After

Posted by Firebaby

I am completly crashing and I have no idea how you must feel, but I was following you on TTC because you always responded to my posts with such good advice and concern...so this makes me so sad for you...please if you need to talk don't hesitate to FM... I am so sorry

thank you. You were always very helpful also. I appreciate you coming on here and writing this. It means a lot.

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awww i'm so sorry you are going through this!!! sounds like what happened to me! my thoughts and prayers are with you!! just hang in there hon!!!!