Look at all this as a start to many new beginnings!!!!! Maybe take some time to find yourself and make some new goals and take some new risks.
2 years ago I was wearing a t-shirt on V-day that said "Love is like a merry-go-round, stay on long enough and you will throw up!" I wore that T-shirt to the first class I took in grad school......2 years later I am a masters graduate, teacher, and married to a wonderful man.
I'd go through my crappy past all over again, if it meant my life would end up where it is today!
You will get through this.....I'm sure today must've been so hard for you.....but just think of this as a new beginning. Every thing happens for a reason. There is someone better out there for you who will love you unconditionally and won't do what your ex did to you.....stay strong....many hugs sent your way to cheer you up!! ...........