Lets talk body image

It's no surprise that all these hormones/drugs can seriously wreak havoc on our bodies... Right now in conjunction with FET drugs, I'm also on prednisone again

I can't help but feel like the changes I've seen my body go through in the last few years between pregnancy.. infertility treatments.. etc.. just makes this process so much more emotionally draining than it needs to be.

How are you ladies dealing? I'm fine with putting on weight when I'm pregnant, but I'm obviously not even there yet. I'm just finding this so stressful! Not to mention that on top of my change in shape.. there's also the multicolored aspect of my stomach from all the lovenox bruises. I mean hey... if that's what it takes then whatever!............... I would do these injects in my forehead if Dr.B said a healthy baby would come from doing that! I just wish this journey wasn't just as taxing physically as it is emotionally, that's all..... It just makes the emotional part harder to swallow.

This is just a vent. After all, when are my posts NOT just a vent lately?

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I used to work out 3-4x a week. I had to stop that and I can't work out during my 2ww. I feel bloated and not myself. It also does not help being depressed all the time about IF makes me feel bad about myself in general.

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Not dealing well. I wear 1 pair of pants to work because I refuse to buy my new size. No matter how well I eat, I am gaining, gaining, gaining. Fukin PCOS.

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Like IF is not bad enough - we have to deal with the lovely side effects of the drugs to treat it. It's awful - I hate the way I look right now. I was never a skinny minny - but this is ridiculous!

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Oh yeah, its been 5 weeks since my last lovenox injection and my belly is still bruised

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oyyy those bruises.. Cate, when I went for the d&c the pre op nurse asked if I had any scars/bruises... I showed her my stomach.

Needless to say, she was dumbfounded.


It's always interesting to see someones reaction to this sh!t if they're seeing it for the first time

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I tried to have a conversation with dh about this one day. He can't understand why I am not happy that I've changed, since I had a baby. Years of IF treatments, a pregnancy, a mc, and now another pregnancy I look hell. I feel like I can never have my pre-ttc body back. My skin is horrible, dull and acne. I feel like I look like grandmother most days.

Yes obviously its all been worth it because I have my dd but I feel like I can still mourn my looks, my shiny hair, my young skin, my old jean size. I just never feel beautiful and I pray one day I can feel like I use to.

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i am a slob...a huge,bloated,bruised slob...i must permanetly smell like a mix of doritos,metformin,cheeseburgers and gonal..

i have no desire to do anything to make myself look or feel better...i am a infertility hermit whose shell is more like a gordita and i will eat that too

i have let all of this take over my entire life..i hate everyone and everything and i feel bad for like the 5th person that tells me that they are having a baby bc likely they will get punched by my chocolate stained hands

i am sure i have given you guys a great image to think of what i look like and i am sure it resembles pizza the hut from spaceballs

i just wanna look and feel like my old self..which was not much,never been a girly girl,sweatpants ponytail and on the softball field was my deal but it worked for me lol

now i am one reeses peanut butter cup away from having to carry butter with me 24/7 so i can grease doorways to get in

can u tell i amhaving a bad day

sorry for the ramble..thinki will go check the fridge

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you guys crack me up! I always stuff my face and pretend to be on some bull$h!t diet. Yup, we're supposed to be in tip top shape before we get pg.... SURE.
Wendy's my BFF lately.

not proud, but hey we should try and laugh and be snarky as all hell about it. yum.

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Posted by gina409

i am a slob...a huge,bloated,bruised slob...i must permanetly smell like a mix of doritos,metformin,cheeseburgers and gonal..

i have no desire to do anything to make myself look or feel better...i am a infertility hermit whose shell is more like a gordita and i will eat that too

i have let all of this take over my entire life..i hate everyone and everything and i feel bad for like the 5th person that tells me that they are having a baby bc likely they will get punched by my chocolate stained hands

i am sure i have given you guys a great image to think of what i look like and i am sure it resembles pizza the hut from spaceballs

i just wanna look and feel like my old self..which was not much,never been a girly girl,sweatpants ponytail and on the softball field was my deal but it worked for me lol

now i am one reeses peanut butter cup away from having to carry butter with me 24/7 so i can grease doorways to get in

can u tell i amhaving a bad day

sorry for the ramble..thinki will go check the fridge

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Gina youre ***** awesome

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love you girls

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Ha. I just started talking to you guys and I think youre all hilarious.

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Well, I've been going through this since I got married 2 years ago, and I am about 40 pounds heavier than I was at the wedding. I don't think I can really blame meds...just stress. I have turned to food and wine as my outlet too many times just to manage this (along with the stress of buying a house and getting a mortgage in the post-crash market, work, etc.)

My weight (obviously) is now making it HARDER to conceive. And I'm afraid to do what I need to do to start taking weight off--what I would have normally started doing by now since I am WAY past my comfort zone--because I always worry it will mess up my chances that month. When I've tried to ease into dieting, I just become overloaded by stress and despair, and I can't seem to get into the momentum that it takes to feel good about losing weight. In fact (confession) one of the reasons I have never come to a GTG is because I don't want to meet new people while I'm this fat.

Not to mention the fact that timed sex, abstaining in anticipation of IUIs and IVF, and the general notion that I'm not fertile (in conjunction with weight and bloating from meds) has made me feel totally sexless. Like I may as well be a man. Or a nun. Just totally unattractive and non-sensual.

This is why I'm in therapy.

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Posted by gina409

i am a slob...a huge,bloated,bruised slob...i must permanetly smell like a mix of doritos,metformin,cheeseburgers and gonal..

i have no desire to do anything to make myself look or feel better...i am a infertility hermit whose shell is more like a gordita and i will eat that too

i have let all of this take over my entire life..i hate everyone and everything and i feel bad for like the 5th person that tells me that they are having a baby bc likely they will get punched by my chocolate stained hands

i am sure i have given you guys a great image to think of what i look like and i am sure it resembles pizza the hut from spaceballs

i just wanna look and feel like my old self..which was not much,never been a girly girl,sweatpants ponytail and on the softball field was my deal but it worked for me lol

now i am one reeses peanut butter cup away from having to carry butter with me 24/7 so i can grease doorways to get in

can u tell i amhaving a bad day

sorry for the ramble..thinki will go check the fridge

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Posted by gina409

i am a slob...a huge,bloated,bruised slob...i must permanetly smell like a mix of doritos,metformin,cheeseburgers and gonal..

i have no desire to do anything to make myself look or feel better...i am a infertility hermit whose shell is more like a gordita and i will eat that too

i have let all of this take over my entire life..i hate everyone and everything and i feel bad for like the 5th person that tells me that they are having a baby bc likely they will get punched by my chocolate stained hands

i am sure i have given you guys a great image to think of what i look like and i am sure it resembles pizza the hut from spaceballs

i just wanna look and feel like my old self..which was not much,never been a girly girl,sweatpants ponytail and on the softball field was my deal but it worked for me lol

now i am one reeses peanut butter cup away from having to carry butter with me 24/7 so i can grease doorways to get in

can u tell i amhaving a bad day

sorry for the ramble..thinki will go check the fridge

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Posted by cateyemm

Posted by Leb
Furthermore I realized last night one boob is definitely bigger than the other and I have party hats that just won't quit.

What are party hats that just wont quit?

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Posted by Leb

Posted by cateyemm

Posted by Leb
Furthermore I realized last night one boob is definitely bigger than the other and I have party hats that just won't quit.

What are party hats that just wont quit?

Hahaha hard nips, like when you're cold, but I am not! They hurt too.

I am a real hot mess at work with my muffin top and button down that is stretched over my party hats!

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This is exactly how I feel lately. I want to eat better and lose weight, but I am so depressed about not being preggo that I run for the chocolate or the Salt N' Vinegar chips (sometime both, lol).

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my self esteem is like ZERO right now....bc of this PCOS, i have gained almost 15 pounds, I'm breaking out on my face and back, and think i might be growing a mustache. I'm just happy I'm married bc i feel like i would never get a guy looking like this

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Im glad to hear that Im not the only one feeling like a 16 year old teen with bad acne and a muffin top. tomorrow is monday so i'll start my diet again...its starts every monday and its over by monday night. hormones are awesome arent they?? BLAH! i'll have to focus on that whole beauty on the inside thing for now

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Posted by cateyemm

Oh yeah, its been 5 weeks since my last lovenox injection and my belly is still bruised

Message edited 11/6/2011 6:37:37 PM.