Relief....

So after having the m/c on 11/21 and the D&C on 11/25 my HCG is now less the 5. I am so relieved and upset. It's so bitter-sweet. The blessing is that WHEN we get another BFP it will be the real deal and not a fluke. How did you ladies feel when you got the less the 5 confirmed? I'm so scared to start trying again, but part of me is relieved it's "over".......is that wrong?

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For us, when I got the call that I was no longer pregnat, I was relieved it was over...and we started trying immediately. I think it is completely normal to feel the way you are feeling. It is hard, but for me, getting back to TTCing was exactly what I needed. 9 months later, our beautiful loving son was born!!

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the last time i ddint have bloodwork after the d&c so i never knew but we waited the 2 months to try like the doc said.. this time i know that it was at 5 my last appt and im supposed to go for a thrumbophilia profile to see if there is anything wrong with me and i assume i should be waiting to try but dh doesnt seem to be on the same page in waiting this time so im just gonna go with whatever is mean to be will.... this time i was very relived when i knew the number was down

Message edited 12/23/2008 12:18:21 PM.

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For me it was bittersweet, don't really know how to explain it. I got pregnant both times via IVF and the first one ended in a m/c. I was relieved when it finally went back to under 5, but I was also terrified of it happening again.

You do forge on and find that inner strength to move on. With my current pregnancy I had a vanishing twin (even after seeing two heartbeats). That was bittersweet as well. I felt guilty grieving it as I still have one healthy baby growing.

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I had mixed emotions. Part of me was glad I was able to move on and another part was sad. I am still waiting for AF and I find that hard.

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Posted by CAH127

I had mixed emotions. Part of me was glad I was able to move on and another part was sad. I am still waiting for AF and I find that hard.

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I was relieved when AF showed.

It was like, " ok, it's all over. AF showed in a timely fashion, which means my body is recovering."

A m/c is a horrible thing to go thru. I think it's normal to want to come out of it and get to the other side.



I remember after the D&C I bleed for a few days. I just wanted the bleeding to stop, so it could be over. The blood was a constant reminder.

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Posted by medic6809

Posted by CAH127

I had mixed emotions. Part of me was glad I was able to move on and another part was sad. I am still waiting for AF and I find that hard.

See that's what worries me.....I wonder how I will feel when she shows.....will I be relieved I'm "normal" again, will it hit me again we lost the baby, will I just say well she's here and move on? I'm just nervous on how I will feel emotionally. I have done well, I think with the m/c, but sometimes I wonder if I still don't believe it? I worry how I will react when AF arrives.

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No, it's not wrong. I was absolutley relieved that it was over and I could move on. I couldn't change what happened and the only thing to do was move forward.

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It's a mix of emotion. Disappointment, sadness yet relief when AF shows back because now you can really move on IMO. I felt in terrible limbo until AF came back. Now that AF came back I decided to monitor my O to make sure I am doing well. At this point I want my body back on track so we can TTC again in another cycle.

Message edited 12/24/2008 12:06:39 PM.