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I went on my hospital tour yesterday and just being in the labor and delivery room almost broke me down to tears for so many different reasons.

I am scared sh!tless, I am so happy to become a mommy, I am scared to death to become a mommy and I pray nothing is wrong with my DC when he is born.

I almost had a panic attack, I felt like the only one in there who was feaking out. I talked with my dh about it and he just doesnt get it. Hes like its natural for a woman to have a baby...duh! Im just terrified for all the things that could go wrong.

Im also scared of how much my life is going to chnage, not in a selfish way, but in a realistic way.

I want to have a natural birth and just being in the L/D room made me second guess myself...please tell me I am not overreacting, this is normal thoughts and feelings...

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i could have wrote this myself. Im scared shitless..not so much about being a mom..im scared of that too..but actually giving birth..LOL

my DH keeps saying i should embrace it. Its not that im not happy or enjoying this experience. but i still have the right to be afraid of the unknown.

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I almost cried on the hospital tour when they showed us a day old baby

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I think that feeling is completely normal b/c no matter how much babysitting one does, it really cannot prepare you for the fact that there is a LO depending upon you for everything.

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I believe the closer we get, the more reality sets in & we all deal with moments of panic & being scared.

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I am literally pissing my pants about the reality of it all.

trying to brace myself for what I think labor might feel like (fat chance...it'll be worse I am sure)

and how it will feel to bleed endlessly for weeks after.

and how weird my tummy is going to feel...deflated after having the baby there for so long.

I wonder if I am going to have twinges/feel my organs and such moving back into place after.

I am UBER nervous about the lack of sleep and feeding schedules...while hoping to GOD I can EBF for as long as I need to!

I have always been the type to try to look the worst head on. not to sugar coat anything for myself.

when I get really bad, I go into our room and hold the little booties we bought the baby, and stick my face inside the little outfits to imagine how wonderful they will smell with the scent of my baby lingering....

it helps. and you are so not alone.

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all you ladies will just be fine, I had 4 children, they only problem is they grow up to fast, so cherish every moment, oh, lucky for me I now have 3 beautiful smart grand babies,
Shaylee- 3
Brayden-2
Jazmyn-1
I so love being there nana.....

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I almost fainted during our hospital tour. Try not to freak out, there will be plenty of people to help you through it.

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I am in total birth denial! I TRY not to let myself think about it to be honest, that is why I am not taking any birthing classes, even in watching the video I will forward if I don't ant to hear about it. I am afraid to go on the tour seeing how many girls have freaked out about it lol...I am going to try to stay calm and if i am feeling overwhelmed I am out of there!

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You wrote exactly what I have been feeling so strongly these past few days - and I didn't even go on the hospital tour yet.... that's next week!!!

I think what we are feeling is totally normal and realistic.

Sitting in the nursery, on the glider purchased by the Great-Grandma to be, holding and rocking my cabbage patch kid yes my cabbage patch kid, imagining what things will be like in 2 months and chatting with DH about our fears and excitement - actually brought me a sense of comfort....

the anticipation of what's to come, the lack of the unknow and the fear that comes with it is all very normal - and is part of our experience.

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I felt the same way with my DS. I was sooo scared, I thought of scenarios all day every day at the end.

I can say for me, once Labor actually started, TOTAL adreneline took over, I had no time to think of being scared. I was just in this "mode". Hard to explain.

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I could of wrote your post!! I'm soooooo scared! What if something gos wrong? What if the baby isn't healthy? I go on my hospital tour next weekend and I don't want to go. Being on bedrest give me way to much time to think of things. I'm so excited to be a mom but scared if I'll be a bad mom. I could go on and on over this topic but the fear I have brings tears in my eyes because of the unknown

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I am feeling the same way- this is why I haven't even scheduled a tour yet