I thought I would be doing better than I am and to be honest - I have been in tears all night and I can't stop. Monday April 2nd is my son Christopher James' second birthday and I want him here so badly it's truly killing me. He should be sitting on my lap all chubby and smiles getting ready to blow out his birthday candles with his cousins all around him showering him with kisses. Instead we will all be sending birthday balloons with messages for a Happy 2nd Birthday up to Heaven. But I am selfish, I don't want to send the balloons, I want him here chasing after them. And I hate so much that he's not here.
Mommy & Daddy miss you CJ and wish with all of our hearts that you were here with us. I can only hope Grandpa is taking good care of you.
Donna, I can't imagine how you could possibly feel on CJs second birthday I'm sorry things didn't work out as I so hoped they would I will never forget him and feel honored to have even met him.
i cant imagine the extreme pain it is to lose a child. and im not even going to pretend i know the right things to say. i just want to send many prayers and hugs to you and your family.
I will never forget him and feel honored to have even met him. 
