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dandr10199
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UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post). UPDATE - page #2
I need to get this out, I am so so sad and disappointed today. I am really getting depressed about everything today.
About two hours ago my upstairs bathroom leaked though to the downstairs bathroom again. After it was fixed. I have no idea why this keeps happening. I am so upset about this. orginal post about the mold in the bathroom
When our friend fixed this in October, I held off sending in the EMHE application, I am regretting that decision and I am sending it in over the weekend.
DH and I have been fighting a lot lately over finances, him fixing up the house and helping me more around the house. DH tries to fix things BUT he 1) is not handy really and 2) he is F/T work and F/T school so he has NO TIME to fix thing and we have no $$$ to fix it.
Plus, work for me has been very slow the last two weeks. I am debating taking on another P/T job until my business takes off, which would mean less time with DD. 
I am also really starting to question my faith, too. When I look at all of the tragic things that has happened to amazing people on this site, friends of mine and to me, I find myself asking more and more..."God, where are you?"
I feel like my house is a metaphor for my life right now. My house is falling apart and so is my relationship with DH, our finances, my faith. Plus, I do not trust my own body due to my heart surgery last May.
I am living day to day just waiting for the other shoe to drop when something good happens, because lately, it always does drop. I need to get my optimism and faith back and I am not sure how to do it. Any advice would be helpful. TIA 
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
 I have no real advice, just some
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LFitzy79
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
I know things seem really hard right now, but try to hold onto the idea that God will never give you more then you can handle...I don't know why you're being tested, but hold onto your faith.
don't jump to any quick solutions, think about the part time job before you jump into it...maybe something will move forward with your business...
where do you live? maybe someone on here knows a good plummer that works cheap....
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| Posted 3/25/08 3:29 PM |
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Lucky09
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
No advice either but I can definitely sympathize with you because I feel the EXACT same way.
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| Posted 3/25/08 3:29 PM |
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nbc188
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
Hopefully it WILL get better, and soon
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
Just wanted to give you lots and lots of
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Ambersmom
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
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codybear
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
I'm so sorry your feeling this way. I think the only thing you can do is look at each issue as they are seperate and none of them are too overwhelming that way. Every relationship, job, house, etc has ups and downs and it sounds like a lot of downs are just converging for you. Hang in there, you will get through it all.
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Phyl
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
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Jessica
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
Hang in there
i was actually about to post a similar thread yesterday after crying for hours
I too feel so lost and depressed because everything is out of my control..Everything bad keeps happening and i just now anticipate the next thing to go wrong too!
but im hoping its happening to us because we ARE STRONG WOMEN AND IT IS GIVEN TO US BECAUSE WE CAN HANDLE IT. I am anxiously waiting for something good to come out of everything. Hey maybe we'll both win the mega millions tonight
PLEASE fm me if you need to talk or just vent.
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jxnoscar
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
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donegal419
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
i'm sorry you are feeling this way.... sometimes life is hard. and i always believed that just because we believe in God, doesn't mean that saves us from life's hard times. As my mother always says, "We all have our own crosses to bear."
Hang in there... I know it's not easy. Perhaps talking to friends or family might help... or perhaps a support group of some sort (i believe you said you recently had heart surgery--- maybe the hospital can refer you to something where people with similar issues can talk) and pray; it always makes me feel a bit better.
GOOD LUCK! 
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
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nrthshgrl
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
Posted by donegal419
i'm sorry you are feeling this way.... sometimes life is hard. and i always believed that just because we believe in God, doesn't mean that saves us from life's hard times. As my mother always says, "We all have our own crosses to bear."
Hang in there... I know it's not easy. Perhaps talking to friends or family might help... or perhaps a support group of some sort (i believe you said you recently had heart surgery--- maybe the hospital can refer you to something where people with similar issues can talk) and pray; it always makes me feel a bit better.
GOOD LUCK!
ITA. Hang in there. This too shall pass.
I know this sounds lame but I would try to do as much as you can around the house so that you feel settled. You deserve a space that is peaceful for times that are rough.
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MrsERod
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
i hope things get better for you!
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SweetTooth
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
Just wanted to give
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dandr10199
Grace is growing up too fast!
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Dina
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
Posted by nrthshgrl
Posted by donegal419
i'm sorry you are feeling this way.... sometimes life is hard. and i always believed that just because we believe in God, doesn't mean that saves us from life's hard times. As my mother always says, "We all have our own crosses to bear."
Hang in there... I know it's not easy. Perhaps talking to friends or family might help... or perhaps a support group of some sort (i believe you said you recently had heart surgery--- maybe the hospital can refer you to something where people with similar issues can talk) and pray; it always makes me feel a bit better.
GOOD LUCK!
ITA. Hang in there. This too shall pass.
I know this sounds lame but I would try to do as much as you can around the house so that you feel settled. You deserve a space that is peaceful for times that are rough.
Not lame at all. I had to re-do the EMHE application b/c there is a new one for season 6. So I did that in the last 2 hours and I feel a little better.
I did try a "support group" all were 60-80 year olds that blew our their valves by smoking, drinking or being obese. The HUGE difference is that they CHOSE to trash their bodies, I was born with this. I stopped going b/c they could not relate to me and I found myself getting angry at them. I thought, you smoke for 50 years and drink, your aortic valve is blown out, you had surgery and all you can talk about is that you want another cigarette???? OR The pain of THEIR surgery and how I am "lucky" to be so young and that it must have been eaiser for me b/c of my age. Excuse me, I had the same surgery as all of them and exactly how am I Lucky?????? When all of my friends are on baby #2 (and I cannot have any more children), have beautiful homes (mine is falling apart), are healthy (fill in the blank to that one), I am LUCKY??? WHAT??? Yes, I am lucky to be alive, but I would not say that me having a congenital heart defect makes me lucky. UGH. I was so upset that I left after the first meeting and started seeing a therapist myself.
The truth is, that when you are young, have a family, have a career, have dreams and you see your dreams vanish because of a medical issue that you had no control over, it is depressing.
AND because of you and your medical bills, and not earning an income while recovering from life saving surgery, all of your savings were eaten up, you got back into debt (after coming out of 40K of it three years ago), you are fighting with your DH over money and not the normal "we need more $$$" fights, b/c when you feel like your surgery caused all of this garbage in your life it takes on a whole other realm of emotions. Every fight ends in tears and guilt. It is horrible.
ETA: sorry that this post is a debbie downer post, I am having a rough day today. this thing with the bathroom set me off and I have been crying then working, then crying most of the day.
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luvsbob4603
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
Many Hugs to you I've been feeling the same way as you lately myself i been questioning my faith and beliefs after hearing of all of the crisis and also with me that i cant have any Babies...EVER  . I dont feel like a normal person i feel like i'm a person in a body that is abnormal imean yes mentally I'm normal 'BUT' physically 'NO' because like i said i cant carry a baby and my Dr. told me i will never have them..So right now i feel Angered, jealous, envy, Hatred not at anyone on here but in general i'm just very mad at the world..Does this make sense? But we 'ALL AS WOMEN' will get through this and i guess we are being tested to see how our strength is and I'm failing mine... Sorry to Hijack the thread.
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| Posted 3/25/08 5:08 PM |
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dandr10199
Grace is growing up too fast!
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
Posted by luvsbob4603
Many Hugs to you I've been feeling the same way as you lately myself i been questioning my faith and beliefs after hearing of all of the crisis and also with me that i cant have any Babies...EVER . I dont feel like a normal person i feel like i'm a person in a body that is abnormal imean yes mentally I'm normal 'BUT' physically 'NO' because like i said i cant carry a baby and my Dr. told me i will never have them..So right now i feel Angered, jealous, envy, Hatred not at anyone on here but in general i'm just very mad at the world..Does this make sense? But we 'ALL AS WOMEN' will get through this and i guess we are being tested to see how our strength is and I'm failing mine... Sorry to Hijack the thread.
don't apologize.
I know exactly how you feel about feeling like your body is failing you. vent away.
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luvsbob4603
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
Posted by dandr10199
Posted by luvsbob4603
Many Hugs to you I've been feeling the same way as you lately myself i been questioning my faith and beliefs after hearing of all of the crisis and also with me that i cant have any Babies...EVER . I dont feel like a normal person i feel like i'm a person in a body that is abnormal imean yes mentally I'm normal 'BUT' physically 'NO' because like i said i cant carry a baby and my Dr. told me i will never have them..So right now i feel Angered, jealous, envy, Hatred not at anyone on here but in general i'm just very mad at the world..Does this make sense? But we 'ALL AS WOMEN' will get through this and i guess we are being tested to see how our strength is and I'm failing mine... Sorry to Hijack the thread.
don't apologize.
I know exactly how you feel about feeling like your body is failing you. vent away.
Thank you for understanding... I'm here for you as well, fm me anytime.
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donegal419
St. Gerard, pray for us.
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
Posted by dandr10199
Not lame at all. I had to re-do the EMHE application b/c there is a new one for season 6. So I did that in the last 2 hours and I feel a little better.
I did try a "support group" all were 60-80 year olds that blew our their valves by smoking, drinking or being obese. The HUGE difference is that they CHOSE to trash their bodies, I was born with this. I stopped going b/c they could not relate to me and I found myself getting angry at them. I thought, you smoke for 50 years and drink, your aortic valve is blown out, you had surgery and all you can talk about is that you want another cigarette???? OR The pain of THEIR surgery and how I am "lucky" to be so young and that it must have been eaiser for me b/c of my age. Excuse me, I had the same surgery as all of them and exactly how am I Lucky?????? When all of my friends are on baby #2 (and I cannot have any more children), have beautiful homes (mine is falling apart), are healthy (fill in the blank to that one), I am LUCKY??? WHAT??? Yes, I am lucky to be alive, but I would not say that me having a congenital heart defect makes me lucky. UGH. I was so upset that I left after the first meeting and started seeing a therapist myself.
The truth is, that when you are young, have a family, have a career, have dreams and you see your dreams vanish because of a medical issue that you had no control over, it is depressing.
AND because of you and your medical bills, and not earning an income while recovering from life saving surgery, all of your savings were eaten up, you got back into debt (after coming out of 40K of it three years ago), you are fighting with your DH over money and not the normal "we need more $$$" fights, b/c when you feel like your surgery caused all of this garbage in your life it takes on a whole other realm of emotions. Every fight ends in tears and guilt. It is horrible.
ETA: sorry that this post is a debbie downer post, I am having a rough day today. this thing with the bathroom set me off and I have been crying then working, then crying most of the day.
all i can say is i wish i could help... it sounds so overwhelming.
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
So sorry that you are having a rough go recently.
Look at all you have over come in the past few years. You had a life threatening heart problem that you overcame, you were 40k in debt and you came out of that too. When you were first faced with these I'm sure they seemed like the impossible hill to get over but YOU DID IT.
You have a gorgeous DD and a husband who is trying to make things at home work.
As for your faith I know I have felt like that too everything is just piling up and it is hard to see the good but think all of the miracles that happen everyday.
I hope things get better for you
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dandr10199
Grace is growing up too fast!
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
Thanks everyone.
It helped a lot to vent / let it out on here.
I know things will look better tomorrow. Thanks again
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| Posted 3/25/08 9:26 PM |
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luvsbob4603
To a healthy 2013
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Re: UGH, I am really about to loose it...(sorry long post)
Posted by dandr10199
Thanks everyone.
It helped a lot to vent / let it out on here.
I know things will look better tomorrow. Thanks again
How are you doing today?
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