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When did I become this type of mother? Very emotional today... Warning - very Long and annoyingly whiny...
Let me begin by saying that I happily marched Cailen into daycare at 8 and a half weeks old, went to work all day, and picked him up just fine. Everyday, I saw how much he liked the teachers in his class, how much they loved him, and he was happy to be there everyday.
But today, both of his teachers are out, and he has 2 subs. One is new and very sweet - like a grandma, and when she is in the baby room, she loves Cailen... The other teacher makes cottage cheese look bold and exciting. Everytime I see her I always hope she never has to work in Cailen's room. She looks like she doesn't even enjoy being there, and just goes thru the motions.
Plus, I have to go to a wedding at 4:00 today, so DH is picking him up for the 1st time at daycare, and will get there close to 6. I try to never pick Cailen up that late.
The grandma teacher must have noticed I was anxious this morning. she kept telling me "Don't worry mommy. Cailen will be just fine..." She was very sweet, but the other 2 teachers know everything about Cailen. What he likes, who he's friends with in the class (he actually does have a few babies he likes already!!!) how he eats, how he poops, how he sleeps, etc - I feel like I'm leaving him with total strangers. But why does it bother me now, when 2 months ago I was also leaving him with strangers???
Maybe its also because I won't see him until later this evening, and maybe I feel more in control knowing I will be picking him up. I called DH telling him everything he needs to do when he gets him, and also to be sure to get an early enough train to be there on time - he's coming from the city. I'm a wreck worrying about the weather affecting LIRR....
So, I'm at the nail salon at the dryer thingy, and I call DH again with a few more instructions, and remind him again to be sure to factor in the weather, and get an early enough train. DH is like - yeah, I have a meeting, I gotta go.
There were 2 women next to me at the salon. One was an older lady, and she said, "Its never easy leaving your baby at daycare..."
I then tell her, "I'm usually fine, but today he has 2 sub teachers and.... Bwaaa haaaa haaaaaa..." I begin crying like an idiot at the nail salon. And still telling them everything like they friggin care (I guess they did - but looking back I really feel like a moron.) Then the older lady left. Fast  . The other woman was still getting her nails dry, so she talks to me about her teenage kids, and we start talking about sleeping. She had her kids sleeping on a tight schedule for 12 hours a night at 6 weeks old!!!! We had a nice long talk about sleeping (she used CIO, btw) and I felt much better after. I thanked her for making me feel better....
I just never thought I'd ever become this type of mom.... why did it take 2 mts to get here? I thouvght it gets better, not worse!!!
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ckone
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Re: When did I become this type of mother? Very emotional today... Warning - very Long and annoyingly whiny...
DS is 17 month old and I have become that way this month.
DS started a new day care only on Mondays. We moved and he goes to his old Babysiter on somedays and this new place on Mondays.
This Monday, I swear I almost quite my job.............I was shaking when I dropped him off. He screamed and cried so as I walked out the door I cried on and off the whole 1 1/2 commute in my car........... It was horrible.
I love him so much and I just worry so much and feel so bad...
But, we have to do it and THEY are fine. We are not but they are fine....I promise.
I'm sorry. Just know that he is ok and it sounds like the sub is reaaallllllyyyyyy nice plus Cailan is still in that hug me, feed me, change me stage. As long as all the needs are met Cailan is fine.
Message edited 8/10/2007 11:38:44 AM.
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