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LIF Zygote
Member since 6/06 23 total posts
Name: Elena
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Any Meaning to This?
I'd just like to get your opinion on this little incident that occurred today. I can't seem to get it out of my head. I am a portrait photographer. I was taking pictures in a school today of a sweet, angelic little kindergartener. I spent no more than 1 and a half minutes with her, but she'll stay with me for a very long time. She sat down shyly. We had very little smalll talk at all. All of the sudden she says, "I don't have a Mommy. She's in heaven." I looked at her STUNNED. She's 5! I told her that I didn't either and that my Mommy was in heaven too. Suprised to hear my reaction, or misunderstanding me, she said "No, I don't HAVE a Mommy." I said I heard what you said, and I don't either. I repeated that my Mommy was in heaven, too. My mouth was on the floor for probably a whole minute, but I wanted her to feel reassured and comfortable, relatable and NORMAL for a minute. I told her that our Mommies were both in heaven, that they were probably friends. She seemed content with this. Anyway, I am SO heartbroken for this innocent little child. I felt like I knew EXACTLY what she was feeling, I invisioned myself when she looked at me innocently since I didn't have my Mother at her age either. I wanted to get to know her, and support her but unfortunately I wasn't in the position to. Anyway, craziest part of the whole story is to follow. I was interested to find out what her name was. I was SHOCKED to find out that she had the same name as me, which is not a very common name at all. I have been an emotional mess ALL day. I feel it was a sign from my Mom. I don't know if it means anything, but I felt my Mom's presence within me all day. I've been grieving her in a really big way all day. Anyway, thanks for letting me vent out this story, I know it's practically a novel. I'd love to hear any feedback. Thanks again for reading.
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AlohaMa
Never Forget
Member since 2/06 2735 total posts
Name: Jen
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Re: Any Meaning to This?
I'm a HUGE believer that things happen and people come into our lives for particular reasons. Maybe this little girl needed to relate to someone and you were her angel! She is obviously very aware of her situation and to see an adult who knows what it's like must be so comforting to her... even as brief as your visit/interaction was. Maybe it's also a way of you re-visiting your past - maybe not having someone who was in the same situation at that time when you were going through the initial awareness of your loss. Do you feel comforted by the situation even though it was emotionally draining? Do you feel like it helped YOU to let this little one know about your own loss?
Keep your chin up - I personally think you did a great deed in relating to her ... a credit to you and I'm sure your mom must be so proud
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