He was like my brother, our families are very close.. his parents like my second parents... We kind of grew apart the past couple of years and I feel like such a terrible friend because I hadn't seen him in over a year. I didn't even see him at Thanksgiving like I usually do because him and his partner went away that week. He was in the hospital on his birthday two weeks ago and I sent him a text which he probably didn't even get.. He was very sick with pneumonia and I didn't think he would be up to talking.. At that point he was still in a regular room and I didn't go to visit because I was pregnant and had a very bad cold, so I didn't want to take any chances either way... He was supposed to be getting out of the hospital in a few days at that point anyway so I thought I would call him when he was home... But then things took a turn for the worse, he went into respiratory failure and was put in ICU.. For the past week and a half he was fighting for his life. I wanted to go see him but his parents wouldn't let us. So now I feel this guilt that I was a terrible friend and I never got to say goodbye and tell him how much I loved him and how much he meant to me.
I lost a friend a few years ago to cancer... I didn't think at my age I would have to deal with my friends dying.. Why is this happening?
I'm so very sorry Lauren. It's hard enough losing a friend so young...but to not be able to say goodbye. I'm sure in his heart he knows that if you could have been there you would have. He sounded like a great friend.
many prayers for his family and for you.
