sad day today

Well most are kinda sad. Though on Sat and Sun I had some fun. I finally went out and stayed out. I got a little too drunk actually... but still have fun.

We tried to go out Fri night.... but neither of was wanted to be there and just couldn't wait to leave. We ended up running out fast.

Now today I'm just sad. I keep seeing posts on FB, LIW, and LIF about people getting BFP's and having babies and though I'm happy for them.... it also breaks my heart a tiny bit more each time i read about it.

I know it's sooo soon after my m/c but I can't wait for another BFP now. I feel like mine was just taken from me and I'm upset and angry about it. I hate feeling sorry for myself or just being upset in general. But I REALLY feel like..... why me? Why did I have to fall into the negative side of the statistics?? Will i next time too?

I'm just bummed and want to fast forward some time. UGH.


My follow up dr appt is this Friday. Do you think he will say it's OK to TTC? Or will that be to early?? It's my 2 week follow up from the d and c.

Message edited 1/25/2010 1:43:58 PM.

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i'm sorry you are having such a sad day. i completely understand how you feel and even though my loss was months ago now, i still have days where i feel EXACTLY how you described. your loss is still recent so it is definitely understandable that you are having days where you feel sad. i don't have any advice but lots of your dr may very well say it's ok to TTC after you get AF again. if not, then they will probably to say to wait until you have AF twice. i know that seems like soooo far away, but it really will go by quickly. sending lots of hugs your way!

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I remember feeling the same way after my m/c. You will feel better in time... but right now is tough. Hang in there!

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This is how I have been feeling everyday since July

It will get easier!! I only feel like this now because of the 2nd one but I will admit, by the time I started trying again last time (2 cycles) I was starting to feel better and more optimistic.

Good luck at your follow up!! They will probably tell you to wait 2 cycles before TTC again. I think if you wait at least one though you should be OK.

Im sorry you are going through this!! I pray you never have to deal with this again!!


(edited for spelling)

Message edited 1/25/2010 2:11:24 PM.

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so he said 1 cycle.
im happy about that.

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My doc said the same thing. One cycle, which really made me happy. Just like you said, I want to move forward from this.