Mrs-Boop
My Babies
Member since 5/05 4956 total posts
Name: Jaime
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Can I beg for some prayers!!
I never believed in superstitions much, but a few months ago I broke a mirror. I laughed it off, but since that day, our lives have been in a tailspin. One thing after another, my health, my sons health, tough times all around. We had a very difficult death in the family a few months ago and now, yesterday, to top it all off my Father, my daddy was diagnosed with colon cancer. I cry saying and seeing the words dad and cancer in the same sentence. His sister, my wonderful and beautiful aunt just died in May from cancer and now it is wreaking more havoc on our family. I honestly do not know how much more I can take. This is my dad, apple of my eye, my little babies ' papa. I can't help but think cancer= the end because honestly, every member of my family that has had it, is gone now. I don't want to think like this, but I just can't stop. I do not want to lose my dad. Why is this happening to us? Our family has suffered so many devestating losses and in the most awkward ways, my brother dying so young, my grandfathers dying on the exact same day, our cousins (husband and wife) dying of cancer two weeks apart, my aunt dying so young of cancer, the list just goes on and on. I don't even know why I am asking for prayers, because honestly, I don't even have any faith left in me, for all I have lost and keep losing. I feel like I am being punished. I just want to crawl up in a ball and be left alone, but I know I can't. Hurts even more because my dad is 1100 miles away. Thankfully, we are leaving tomorrow to go down to Florida and spend time with him. My boss was not too happy about the time off, being I have been out so much because of me and my son being sick so much, but I am at the point of not caring anymore. I had to take it all off, unpaid, which is not going to help things, but my family trumps any job or bill. My dad has to have surgery in the next few weeks, so they can go in and determine how advanced it is. It is a complicated surgery because of his many other health issues (diabetes, heart problem, high BP, etc) . I am hoping it is something curable. I am beyond hoping it is curable. I just can not lose my dad, I will be so destroyed. So if you could PLEASE spare some prayers. Maybe someone elses are a little stronger than mine. Thank you.
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Mrs-Boop
My Babies
Member since 5/05 4956 total posts
Name: Jaime
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Re: Can I beg for some prayers!!
Thank you for all the prayers. I am so thankful we got to spend Thanksgiving down in Florida with my dad. He is trying so hard to act as though nothing is going on and it was very hard to see. He tried to pretend nothing, but I could see how scared he really is. Saying good bye to head home was one of the toughest moments of my life. My dad goes in for surgery on Thursday. They will be going in and cutting out the portion of his intestines that they can see the cancer and biopsying everything else around it. I need so many prayers. I am not affraid of this cancer. I know we can beat this. It is all my dads other health issues that scare me. He has diabetes, a heart condition, high blood pressure. This surgery or any surgery is a risk for him. So if you can spare some more prayers, I'll take em. Thank you!!
Message edited 12/5/2011 10:07:26 PM.
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Mrs-Boop
My Babies
Member since 5/05 4956 total posts
Name: Jaime
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Re: Can I beg for some prayers!!
Thank you so much for the prayers, they worked. Dad had surgery last week and they removed a VERY LARGE tumor. They also biopsied all around. All the results came back and my dad is cancer free. We are so thankful This is the absolute best Christmas gift we could have received. He still has to go and meet with an oncologist in the next week, but it looks good. Thank you!!!
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