Can I vent for a second??

I just need to kvetch to people that understand!

I have been home all weekend with Sasha alone. I posted a few weeks back about tips for traveling with a baby-- we were supposed to go to a wedding this weekend in CT. I decided ultimately, that it best that I didn't go, and stay home with Sasha. To have a babysitter both nights, in a one room hotel room that cost almost $300/night, plus a babysitter-- when I know it would not turn out well, was not a risk worth taking. We have a two week vacation anyway in, er, two weeks. No need to get her all out of sorts, just to do it again so soon. DH went by himself, roomed with his bro and saved some money.

But, he is away for one more night to go to a concert in Saratoga-- so, won't be home til tomorrow early afternoon.

To top off being with the baby by myself, I have this freelance work assignment that I need to complete by EOD Thursday. So, any time Sash is sleeping, I am trying to complete the work. AND, I have another sorta job interview tomorrow, that I gotta prep a bit for.

My mom and MIL offered to come out-- but, I just thought it would be easier to be alone. Especially when every second of downtime, I need to work. They also both live on LI and it's a b!tch to get here-- traveling across Manhattan is the only way to get here, and I would feel obligated to "visit" with them, and not just have them "help". Plus, in the middle of the day is not when I need the help as you all know-- it's first thing in the morning and at bedtime. Even when people come out here-- they have to "beat the traffic", so they are coming when it's convenient for them. I do think it was easier to not have either of them come, but I still have had zero breaks.

Last night, I heard my upstairs neighbor (who, isn't really a neighbor, just the owners niece staying for the summer or something). I cannot wait til she leaves. We never had someone actually living above us, and it's LOUD! I heard very loud walking, and what could only have been "jackhammer-like" sex. Like, I need THIS to wake me up at 3 30 in the morning? As long as I am up-- Sasha wakes up and of course, will not go back to sleep. We are trying to CIO to get her to wait until morning to eat again-- and I think I have the on;y baby who does not respond to sleep training and the only thing consistent about her sleep, is her inconsistencies.

Oh, and I tried running again last week and my legs are out of control in pain. It's not normal, so it just hurts to do anything aside from lie there with a heating pad on my knees and calves.

I am BEYOND exhausted. I felt like such a bad mommy today because I was watching the clock til bedtime. I HATED feeling like that, and usually-- even in the exhausted stupor, I love being with Sasha every second.

I hope we all get to sleep through the night-- including my neighbor who had to endure the "jackhammer" move.

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sorry to hear that :( I've been there...doing it alone for days at a time, when DH goes on business trips. It really stinks! Hang in there

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Honestly I feel some of your pain, DH has been traveling A LOT lately and I have been a lone with Chels more so than normal, my MIL came to stay with me for a week, and let's just say I think it would have been easier if she didn't! I felt like I had to be "on" at all times!!!!

As for your neighbor having jackhammer sex, maybe you should slip her the 1000 sex moves for 10 dollars that the crazy ppl on the street in manhattan sell, sounds like she may need it

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I feel your pain also... DH switched his schedule to nights at work and was also traveling for military training for 2 and 1/2 weeks. His Mom and cousin came to stay with me to "help" for one of those weeks and honestly, I felt the same way you did - it was more work than it was worth to have them stay. I also would LOVE help in the early mornings (DS gets up at 5am) but for some reason no one ever volunteers for that shift - LOL.

I have been there as well when I am watching the clock until bedtime, but honestly, we are only human and can only do the best we can.

Good luck with your assignment, and when DH gets home tell him that he has a LOT of catching up with DD to do.

PS - I recently had DS in a hotel and then at my in-laws house for 3 nights, and to my surprise, he slept BETTER (ie, longer and later) than he does at home! I think he may have been extra worn out from the new surroundings or something. Just wanted to share - you may be pleasantly surprised when you go away!!!

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I know how you feel...its hard doing it all by yourself. Im a single mommy...I go through very stressful days sometimes. I hope you get some sleep tonight.

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ugh dh works 15 hour days from nov to late feb, i was alone and pregnant with one dc, now ill be alone and pregnant with 2 dc's (one of which will be a walking maniac)

and obviously from my previouos post in law help is NOT an option..
good luck, and get some rest!!

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I think many of us have been in that place.

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soooooooo been there and it's rough ESPECIALLY with the added pressure of having to get stuff done!!! Doesn't it help just to vent...

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I absolutely feel your pain. As someone who spends every other weekend alone, with absolutely no husband around, I know how hard it is. Hang in there, and I hope you get all your work done!

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i hope you feel better...

we all need to vent and we have all been there before (except for the neighbors having sex) haha

my DH is away allllllll the time for work.. maybe if you feel this way again, ask your mom to come for the day and spend the night... my mom always loves to still my little man...

my advice - drink a nice big fat glass of wine and hopefully sleep!!!!!

and get outside for a little bit tomm...a nice walk to a park near you, feed sasha outside too.. fresh air usually knocks my little man out..

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thanks everyone. I think I feel a little more rested today... although Sasha woke up at 4 30 and will not go back to sleep. But I do feel recharged.

You know I almost wouldn't mind being alone if it were for a business trip, or it wasn't the weekend-- but DH is away having FUN, sleeping past 5AM and hanging out with people older than 6 months.

As for the single moms or the moms that have to do this all the time-- Hope you guys get to have a break every now and then!!!

He'll be home today and complain how tired he is.

Oh, and no sexcapades last night. Unless it was more "slow and steady".