Feeling So Low

For those of you who haven't seen my updates on pets, my baby Pookie cat is very sick. She has incurable cancer and almost died this past weekend after surgery. She's home now and doing so much better after a blood transfusion, but my little girl who is supposed to be with us for the next 10+ years will go in the next 6 months to 1.5 years - whether or not we continue with radiation and/or chemo. I am 19 weeks tomorrow and just not excited about anything anymore - I just can't stop crying.
I am not showing yet or feeling anything movement or anything, so I'm not really feeling the pregnancy. I can't even begin to think about planning a shower and the overwhelming thought of registering just brings me to tears when all I can think about is my Pookie.
To add something else to the mix, my OB wants to give me the GD test two months early (next week) because of my chronic yeast infections, and my principal, who hates my dept, docked me pay today for being 4 minutes late to work - yep, at 5 months PG. I have friends who came in later than me and nothing was said to them.

I just want to crawl into a hole and sleep forever and I just hate that the rest of this pregnancy will be marred by what's going on with my kitty and will I be spending the rest of the PG running all week long to oncology appts.

If you've read this far, thanks.

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I'm sorry I don't really know what to say. It's so hard to lose a pet. Sending tons of good thoughts your way!

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I'm so sorry!

As far as Pookie.....losing a pet or having a very sick pet is one of the hardest things to deal with. The feeling of wanting to make it better and not being able to communicate to them what is happening is so overwhelming! Try to think about the wonderful life you have given Pookie and be thankful for the lessons she has given to you to help you be a good people mommy too FM if you need anything.....I have delt with this before and delt with it during a m/c and a family death so I do understand how hard it is.

As far as the baby....if I have learned nothing but this so far it is that we are the hardest to convince we're pg! Silly I know, but so true! You WILL feel the baby soon and you WILL fill out. You also have to deal with 1 MAJOR life change at a time. Deal with Pookie and then focus on the baby. You DO have time to register and do all the fun baby stuff.....you don't have to do it today or tomorrow!

I know you feel defeted about the gd test and feeling like cr*p, but try to remember this is all for the health of YOU and the baby!

As far as your boss.....f*ck him. You have PLENTY to deal with and you just have to let it slid.....does it s*ck, yes, but you still have a job and that's the blessing.

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I know how you feel-I lost my Mouser kitty in 2007 due to metastatic lymphoma. I still have her collar. I know how bad it is to see your baby suffer, and it must be worse with these hormones! If you need anything, call me! They put my cat on prednisone to try to shrink the tumors.

And your boss sounds like a real douchebag! I am so mad for you! He docked you four minutes? What does that even equal out to? What a scumbag. Want me to punch him? I am looking for someone to hurt!

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I'm so sorry about all this news, especially the news about Pookie. I'm very very attached to my pet, she is my world, so I can understand your saddness. I will keep you and pookie in my prayers and just hope that everything turns out okay..miracles do happen

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I'm so sorry you are going through this right now. I have two cats now and have had several that have passed. It is always traumatic dealing with a sick pet but coupled with the pregnancy hormones it must be unbearable.

I pray that you have lots of strength to get through this

Your boss is just an idiot!!!