Going to stop lurking... My story and why I'm here...

Hi ladies,

I may be on here often but as for my privacy with pregnancy I do have to...as its been a rollercoaster even trying to see if I could begin to concieve...

I had/have (am still in recovery stages) from an eating disorder.... For years I hid this from everyone and before you know it, the darn thing ruined my uterus...

This was not something I had even pondered while young, as in my profession skinny is what you must be... anything other pulls you down.

So, after months of hormone treatments, and a few in-visit ops, the doctor has told me I can start to try.

Now, comes the hard part. I fight witht his daily, and I fear the worse. I am seeing someone, however, I am so fearful that the harm I've done in the past will completely ruin my chances for concieving. I have lost one in the past but only after four weeks (chemical I believe they called it?)

So... Hello. This is my first "trying" month and been driving myself mad!

God bless and good luck with you all... I hope to see many miracles among the thread board<3

Re: Going to stop lurking... My story and why I'm here...

God bless you for being in the recovery stages of your eating disorder. You're a very strong woman to be able to tackle this disorder and you will be stronger and better for having conquered it...one day at a time

The women on this board are amazing....truly supportive of one another and always willing to help.

You said you're seeing someone now.....is it a fertility doctor(an RE)? That is certainly a step in the right direction. I know you're at the beginning of your journey and it may seem overwhelming now but it will get easier with the more you learn. I wish you all the best of luck. Have faith!! You'll get there

Re: Going to stop lurking... My story and why I'm here...

Good luck to you

Are you seeing an RE? I ask because I suffered with anorexia in my late teens/early 20s and my RE advised that it can affect the quality of your eggs and your entire reproductive system, quite a apart from the issues with your uterus. I assume that is why you have been on hormones?

Again, lots of luck

Re: Going to stop lurking... My story and why I'm here...

Posted by ODonnell

Good luck to you

Are you seeing an RE? I ask because I suffered with anorexia in my late teens/early 20s and my RE advised that it can affect the quality of your eggs and your entire reproductive system, quite a apart from the issues with your uterus. I assume that is why you have been on hormones?

Again, lots of luck

Re: Going to stop lurking... My story and why I'm here...

Posted by daisy32

God bless you for being in the recovery stages of your eating disorder. You're a very strong woman to be able to tackle this disorder and you will be stronger and better for having conquered it...one day at a time

The women on this board are amazing....truly supportive of one another and always willing to help.

You said you're seeing someone now.....is it a fertility doctor(an RE)? That is certainly a step in the right direction. I know you're at the beginning of your journey and it may seem overwhelming now but it will get easier with the more you learn. I wish you all the best of luck. Have faith!! You'll get there

Re: Going to stop lurking... My story and why I'm here...

Posted by BabyDanceBegins

Posted by ODonnell

Good luck to you

Are you seeing an RE? I ask because I suffered with anorexia in my late teens/early 20s and my RE advised that it can affect the quality of your eggs and your entire reproductive system, quite a apart from the issues with your uterus. I assume that is why you have been on hormones?

Again, lots of luck

You got it! Seems like you know exactly what I am going through...

Have you concieved at all yet?

I am really worried..also fearful it will happen again (the eating disorder) but my therapist says the body of a woman is strong and that once I have a child, my natural maternal instincts will come out even more and weight probably will not be an issue...
I hope!

Re: Going to stop lurking... My story and why I'm here...

Best of luck with TTC and your journey. I am in the mental health field and my only advice is that you have your eating disorder well under control before getting pregnant. Your baby will need you to be in the best physical and emotional shape possible.

Re: Going to stop lurking... My story and why I'm here...

than kyou.
I have stayed at a steady weight for the last two years. I feel strong. However i read sometimes about the reprecussions of what happens to them after birth....

I know i am strong...but I am sure you know its all about triggers. I am completely organic now, and healthy so thank god...

Re: Going to stop lurking... My story and why I'm here...

You can do this and I am glad you told your story. The women on this board are the most wonderful you'll ever "meet". Without relying on the strength that came from this board, I would have lost it a long time ago.

I wish you much luck. May your journey to parenthood be a short one and may you continue to be healthy.