Happy Birthday and Holidays to me - ready to vent

IUI #2 a bust. Tried hard not to get my hopes up, but for a second right before making the call for my beta results I hoped and then I heard the "I'm sorry......" Didn't really hear the rest. Speech doesn't change.

I kept telling myself that if it's negative I can go snow tubing and skiing, drinking, eating sushi, and while I had a chance it cheered me up. Now that the results are here, it's not helping. None of that matters.

Considering taking a break for a while after a year and a half of trying....physically and emotional worn out....DH won't quit smoking and I'm putting myself through all the injections, cramps, pains, worries, etc while his numbers remain low. Just frustrated and torn about what to do next.

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I am so sorry.

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I can relate. However,I just went through my first iui and now doing the 2ww. The post cramping was intense for a couple of days after. DH is is staying + and wants to definitely try again in we aren't successful. Wish he would at least stop smoking and try to help get sperm count up. His hi # is still ridiculously low, ughhh!
Hang in therwe

Message edited 12/24/2009 7:43:45 PM.

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I'm so sorry! I know the feeling all to well. (sadly)

I got my beta number today- not looking good. My DH asked me how far am I willing to go? I said, "until I have another baby in my arms". While I was really hoping for a Christmas miracle.. seems as though I might have to wait for my miracle, but, I'm not giving up or taking a break. I think if I were younger, I'd take a break and go on vacation just to get my mind off of everything.

Good luck to you and your DH. You'll know the right decision to make for you.

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HUGS!

Like everyone else I know how hard it is when it doesn't work. This is probably the hardest time of the year to go through it! I was devastated when my 2nd didn't work as well

Just try to remain positive!

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I'm so sorry. It is always so difficult to deal with. Give yourself some time to feel down and than pick yourself back up and try again.

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IUI was so frustrating for me because although I know it does work, the success rate is actually pretty low month to month. I think that most people are successful after the third try. My husband has morph issues and IUI isn't really too helpful for this. I decided to throw in the towel after the first failed, and very devastating IUI. I just couldn't take the disappointment after trying for a year and being disappointed month after month. I also begged my husband to give up coffee because I KNOW that when we conceived my son he stopped - he used to drink A LOT of coffee. He refused for months but finally decided to give it up, right when we moved to IVF and it didn't matter anymore . Don't worry, it will all come together soon.

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Good luck in deciding what the best path is for you.

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Thank you ....all of you. I always know that I can come to you for a little lift. Yesterday felt so hopeless and on top of everything I found out my friend gave birth and another one got pregnant on her first try (BD). It was definitely the wrong day for me to put on my happy face.
I think my body needs the break...the last IUI for some reason was very painful...I only got through it telling myself it's so painful cause this time is it, this time is different. If that's how bad it is each time, I can't keep doing it wtihout DH doing something too.
Thank you all again. I really needed this.