Af is due tommorrow and I just have that feeling like this isn't the month for us.. I will be going into month 5 of ttc... I honestly didn't think that it would be this hard.. I got diagnosed with endo dec. 2006.. I got pregnant in feb. 2007 and had a mc but then I got pregnant again in april 2007 and I had a healthy dd in january 2008.. She was 2 on the 19th.. I am soo grateful for her but I so desperately want another one.. I feel as though I am being too selfish.. So many other women don't even have one yet and I cry b/c I'm having trouble conceiving a second child.. Actually... I have an Aunt who is not much older than I am and she has endo too.. she has been trying for about 15 years.. I just found out yesterday that she is 6 1/2 weeks preggo and I couldn't be happier for her.. I actually prayed for her and said that I wouldn't hold it against god if he made me wait for #2 only if she could have her first.. I am beyond happy for her and I hope everything works out.. I'm sorry if this is too long.. I just needed to get it out of my head about things.. I just don't want to be dissappointed again this month.. it hurts soo much... I was an only child growing up and I hated it.. I always wished that I would have a sibling and I vowed that I would give my child a sibling and now I feel like I'm screwing it up.. Ughhhh I am probably just way too emotional b/c stupid Af is on her way.. I always get like this.. I cry at the droop of a hat around this time.. again sorry for this being soo long.. I hope everyone else is having a great day and hopefully getting BFP's!!!!!! Thanks for listening
