Depression and Anxiety - Question for mothers and anyone else out there

This is the first time ive posted about this and unfortunately I m not ready to reveal myself. I have two children and for the past 3 years or so I've been able to manage anxiety and depression without the use of any medication. I could go about 2 months feeling great and then have a depressive episode for 2 weeks and then feel better again for another couple months. Its wierd but the span of me feeling well was a bit long so I decided not to go on any meds.

Well recently i've been experiencing depression/anxiety for 2 weeks at a time - I will then feel better for 2 weeks and then again feel bad for 2 weeks. This has been coming on for the last couple months. Its been HORRIBLE to say the least. I've been seeing a therapist for a year or so now but im thinking I may need Medication. I don't know how much I can take of this, I even have anxiety about the depression returning again soon. Having two children doesn't help especially when im feeling incredibly irritated and sad. i feel like I take out my frustration on them and I feel so badly about that. I hope and pray they won't ever have to deal with this.

My question is: I can't help but feel like im defeating myself by taking medication. Ive been fighting it for a while now without taking anything and i feel like im giving into this depression/anxiety by taking meds. Its hard to explain but i was wondering if anyone has ever felt like this in the beginning. I don't think ive fully accepted that I have this issue that I have to struggle with so I don't know if that plays a role. I just feel so bad for myself taking medication - but I think this time around I will really need it to help me feel better. My therapist gave me the numbers of some doctors and i keep picking up the phone and putting it down - i guess im scared of having bad reactions to medications or me getting worse......
Ive been trying to exercise, I take vitamins - but i haven't been feeling better lately.....

Any advice

Message edited 7/8/2009 2:27:23 PM.

Re: Depression and Anxiety - Question for mothers and anyone else out there

I don't take medication for depression or anxiety but I do have family members that do. Why would you ever feel guilty about needing a medication. It isn't your fault nor something that you could control. If you were a diabetic that needed insulin, would you feel guilty? This is the same thing. Don't feel guilty about it at all.

Re: Depression and Anxiety - Question for mothers and anyone else out there

Posted by shamrock124

I don't take medication for depression or anxiety but I do have family members that do. Why would you ever feel guilty about needing a medication. It isn't your fault nor something that you could control. If you were a diabetic that needed insulin, would you feel guilty? This is the same thing. Don't feel guilty about it at all.

Message edited 7/9/2009 8:54:29 AM.