Feeling discouraged

I am 10dpo today. I tested this morning (and at 8dpo ) and both were BFN. I know it is still early and I am not out yet, but I also feel that if I was pg I would know by now. We are timing everything as perfect as we can and I still get nothing. Now I am coming to the point where I will set an April appt with the RE, but I don't want to. I know it may sound selfish of me, but I really want to get pg once on my own. My first was conceived through IUI and between her and work, getting to the visits in the early AM for monitoring... I don't know how I will do it. The thought of the RE is stressing me out. I am just very emotional today. Either PMS or PG, my hormones are raging. I am disappointed in myslef. It seems like other people get pg so easily and I hate that I am not one of those people. DH is very supportive, but I know he is sad that it is so hard on me and that is takes so long. He is realistic and knows it isn't easy, but I still feel like I am failing.

I am sad and rambling now. Thanks for letting me get this out so early in the AM.

Re: Feeling discouraged

i am sorry you are dealing with this. try not to compare yourself to other people. it may seem like it is easy for them...and for some it might be...but you might just not know what some people have gone through.

I definitely understand the RE being stressful. It is definitely hard making the frequent appts and being on several meds, but I think it is worth going bc they will probably get you pregnant quicker than if you just keep trying on your own. I was trying on my own for months and then got my bfp this cycle which was my first medicated cycle with the RE.

good luck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Re: Feeling discouraged

I'm sorry I don't have any advice. Just hugs and babydust.

Re: Feeling discouraged

its still really early

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I'm so sorry that you are feeling like this!!!

I think it may be too early...you are not out yet!!! Baby Dust..Baby Dust..Baby Dust!!!!!

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I'm sorry that you're feeling this way. I know it's easier said than done, but try not to put so much pressure on yourself. You are NOT failing. As you know, it can take time. And you're on the right track and very much aware of everything that you may need to do.

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Thanks ladies. Now that the morning has gone on I am feeling somewhat better. I will do my best to keep positive and remember it is still early.

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I know what you mean, its extrememly frustrating. I am 12DPO and so far all BFNs. Im thinking the same way you are, if I was pregnant I should have gotten a BFP by now (esp. at 12 DPO). I know there is still hope but with every BFN I lose some hope. Im sorry I cant offer much advice but it will happen. It will happen for all of us just hang in there

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This is why we really shouldn't test before AF is due! We are all killing ourselves (me included).

Good luck!

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i am so sorry!

i know how it feels..when we had to go to the RE i was devastated..same when i found out about the pcos and all the meds and shots

i was mad at my body for not letting me do this on my own..but bottomline it is what it is and if this is what it takes we just keep going and roll with the punches

best of luck!