last night at my grandmas wake thats I had to ask my DH to leave with me so I could go home and lay down. I felt like I was going to faint and I kept shaking and when I tried to re-enter the room I felt hot and all shaken up, my stomache was killing me. I had to take a xanax to calm myself down but it didnt kick in soon enough. I feel so bad that I had to leave and I hope my grandma forgives me.
I have to do this all over again today and I am trying to relax and tell myself its ok your going to be fine. I am actually thinking of bringing by DD with me to kinda help me keep my mind off of feeling anxiety. She is 3 and a half so I dont know if I should. What do you think?