I need some encouragement...

Do you ever feel maybe you aren’t supposed to have a child, that’s why it’s so difficult to get pregnant? Maybe it’s all the meds and emotions and curve balls I’ve been handed this week but I’m really getting nervous that it hasn’t happened because it’s not supposed to.

I’m scheduled for my first egg retrieval on Sunday and I’m so excited for it. Then I get a call that my blood work came back positive for Hepatitis B and Rubella. WHAAAAAAAAAT!!! When I had my prenatal testing in 2010 for my son they came back negative and immune for rubella. My doctor thinks it’s a good chance they are false positives and sent out new samples today. I’m also meeting with my primary care tomorrow.

This just has me so flipped out and worried it’s just another sign our son is not supposed to have a sibling. Has anyone ever felt like this? Is it normal?

Re: I need some encouragement...

I am so sorry I felt that way earlier when I got a BFN that maybe it's not meant to be, but then I was like "screw that". Things happen there will be bumps during this journey and eventually things will get better.

Re: I need some encouragement...

What you are feeling is totally normal. After countless disappointing months I always questioned if I was just mean to have only one child. And as the previous poster said, after a few hours of feeling sorry for myself and questioning everything I would just get pissed off and say F THAT!!!!!!!!! And I would gear up and try again. I'm sorry BEST OF LUCK ON SUNDAY!!!!!

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I need some encouragement...

I think thats a typical feeling when your going through fertility issues. I was trying for almost 4 years. But in the middle of that had to have surgery for a HUGE fibroid. Then just as we were finally moving forward after my recovery I lost my hearing and had to wait until my balance returned and my neurologist cleared me to try. Finally was ready to start fertility treatments and I got blood work back that they had to retest. It's so easy to start feeling you weren't meant to be a mom. But I have friends who have adopted, friends who used surrogates, friends who did it with egg donors… I had to keep telling myself, there's always a way, even if its not the way I want.

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