dd is 15 months old, still doesn't sleep through the night and is strong willed and stubborn (and i love her to death). i just got my body back and dd seems to be on her way to weaning. i started running and am looking to lose another 10 pounds and get in shape again (pregnancy killed me body). i'm in the middle of changing careers and still need some time to fix up my portfolio before i start applying, plus it'd help if i could get in an internship or two for experience. we're stuck in atlanta (for now) which we hate, but are here because it's cheaper and it allows me to stay home with dd and work on my portfolio. as soon as i am ready we're going to start looking to move back to nyc (our real home) which should work (hopefully) as both of our fields have MUCH more available in ny at a much higher pay rate. the faster i move on this, the sooner we can move back. plus i WANT to go back to work - i love dd and am glad i got to stay home with her, but i'm ready to have my own life again and not being just a wife and mother (i literally have no social life here).

i'm no where near ready to have another baby.

so why do i miss being pregnant so much?

i do want another baby eventually, but not now. it's not the right time for us as a family and definitely not the right time for me, but i can't help thinking about it. i kind of wish we were ready - i want my kids to be close together (though i'd be fine with a 3 year difference). i just know it wouldn't be the best option for us right now.

just venting.